What Is And What Should Never Be

And So It Goes

2009-02-17T01:21:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

In every heart there is a room
A sanctuary safe and strong
To heal the wounds from lovers' past
Until a new one comes along

I spoke to you in cautious tones
You answered me with no pretense
And still I feel I said too much
My silence is my self defense

And every time I've held a rose
It seems I only felt the thorns
And so it goes, and so it goes
And so will you soon I suppose

But if my silence made you leave
Then that would be my worst mistake
So I will share this room with you
And you can have this heart to break

And this is why my eyes are closed
It's just as well for all I've seen
And so it goes, and so it goes
And you're the only one who knows

So I would choose to be with you
That's if the choice were mine to make
But you can make decisions too
And you can have this heart to break

And so it goes, and so it goes
And you're the only one who knows

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

Goodnight, My Angel

2009-02-12T17:57:00.001+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

Goodnight my angel, time to close your eyes
And save these questions for another day
I think I know what you've been asking me
I think you know what I've been trying to say
I promised I would never leave you
And you should always know
Wherever you may go, no matter where you are
I never will be far away

Goodnight my angel, now it's time to sleep
And still so many things I want to say
Remember all the songs you sang for me
When we went sailing on an Emerald Bay
And like a boat out on the ocean
I'm rocking you to sleep
The water's dark and deep inside this ancient heart
You'll always be a part of me

Goodnight my angel, now it's time to dream
And dream how wonderful your life will be
Someday your child may cry, and if you sing this lullaby
Then in your heart, there will always be a part of me
Someday we'll all be gone, but lullabies go on and on
They never die, that's how you and I will be

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

Samson

2009-02-10T17:28:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first, I loved you first
Beneath the sheets of paper lies my truth
I have to go, I have to go
Your hair was long when we first met

Samson went back to bed
Not much hair left on his head
He ate a slice of wonder bread and went right back to bed
And history books forgot about us and the bible didn't mention us
And the bible didn't mention us, not even once

You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first, I loved you first
Beneath the stars came fallin' on our heads
But they're just old light, they're just old light
Your hair was long when we first met

Samson came to my bed
Told me that my hair was red
Told me I was beautiful and came into my bed
Oh I cut his hair myself one night
A pair of dull scissors in the yellow light
And he told me that I'd done alright
And kissed me 'til the mornin' light, the mornin' light
And he kissed me 'til the mornin' light

Samson went back to bed
Not much hair left on his head
Ate a slice of wonder bread and went right back to bed
Oh, we couldn't bring the columns down
Yeah we couldn't destroy a single one
And history books forgot about us
And the bible didn't mention us, not even once

You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

Viva La Vida

2009-02-05T22:41:00.001+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

I used to rule the world
Seas would rise when I gave the word
Now in the morning I sleep alone
Sweep the streets I used to own

I used to roll the dice
Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes
Listen as the crowd would sing
"Now the old king is dead! Long live the king!"

One minute I held the key
Next the walls were closed on me
And I discovered that my castles stand
Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand

I hear Jerusalem bells a ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror, my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field

For some reason I can't explain
Once you go there was never
Never an honest word
And that was when I ruled the world

It was the wicked and wild wind
Blew down the doors to let me in
Shattered windows and the sound of drums
People couldn't believe what I'd become

Revolutionaries wait
For my head on a silver plate
Just a puppet on a lonely string
Oh who would ever want to be king?

I hear Jerusalem bells a ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror, my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field

For some reason I can't explain
I know Saint Peter won't call my name
Never an honest word
But that was when I ruled the world

I hear Jerusalem bells a ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror, my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field

For some reason I can't explain
I know Saint Peter won't call my name
Never an honest word
But that was when I ruled the world

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

Vienna (waits for you)

2009-01-25T16:55:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

Slow down you crazy child
You're so ambitious for a juvenile
But then if you're so smart tell me why
Are you still so afraid?
Where's the fire, what's the hurry about?
You better cool it off before you burn it out
You got so much to do and only
So many hours in a day

But you know that when the truth is told
That you can get what you want
Or you can just get old
You're gonna kick off before you even get halfway through
When will you realize...Vienna waits for you

Slow down you're doing fine
You can't be everything you want to be
Before your time
Although it's so romantic on the borderline tonight (tonight)
Too bad but it's the life you lead
You're so ahead of yourself
That you forgot what you need
Though you can see when you're wrong
You know you can't always see when you're right(you're right)

You got your passion you got your pride
But don't you know that only fools are satisfied?
Dream on but don't imagine they'll all come true
When will you realize
Vienna waits for you

Slow down you crazy child
Take the phone off the hook and disappear for a while
It's alright you can afford to lose a day or two
When will you realize...
Vienna waits for you.

And you know that when the truth is told
That you can get what you want
Or you can just get old
You're gonna kick off before you even get halfway through

Why don't you realize...Vienna waits for you
When will you realize...Vienna waits for you

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

Oh Well..

2009-01-22T10:08:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

For Leo,

Today you're going to have to accept a few things that you don't really like -- whether it's an inconvenient meeting time, the nutty opinions of a coworker, or uncooperative weather. These things are out of your control, and the sooner you come to terms with that, the better. You can't be bothered by pettiness when there's nothing you can do to change it. Switch your focus to things you like and things you can change -- like your attitude, or your immediate surroundings.

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

The Long Awaited Story We've All Been Missing Out On

2009-01-16T12:58:00.010+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

Let's have a story, shall we?

After the whole ending of the saga of my struggle to find happiness in April 2007, I found myself heading on a collision course of self-destruction. Deep down, I had always been depressed. I took comfort in the love showered upon me by my family and friends, but when it came to matters of intimate relationships with the opposite sex, I had begun to turn cold with skepticism. I devised my own theories of how love between a man and a woman should be. I was lost from this point onward.

I had tried to do things differently from how I had done them before. I sought out different people for the thrill of the hunt, sexual pleasure and a boost to my ego. Some were friends, some were strangers and some were prostitutes. For quite some time, I felt like this was what it should be from there on. Seeking the comforts and pleasures of consensual parties without having to reveal my true feelings or emotions. I felt like I had nothing to lose. This was during a time when I was stuck in training camps, having nothing else to look forward to but a good time on weekends. I felt on top of the world and nothing nor anybody could put me down or deter me from my relentlessness. Some of my experiences were sensational, but most were not as well as I had imagined they would be. Nevertheless, I was ever spurred.

It all came to a halt when I met and caught up with a good friend's ex-girlfriend, whom I barely knew. One thing led to another and I found myself having gone to bed with this girl. Something that was purely a consensual one-off thing. In the heat of things, everything was going as planned right until I hit a wall and I hit it hard. Suddenly, there was something in me that cried to stop. I did not know what it was at that time, but I found myself not being able to perform. Immediately, I went limp. I was very embarrassed that I could not get myself back on again. I tried and tried until she lost patience and called the whole thing off. I apologized yet I could not explain even to myself what was happening.

After much thought, I had realized that my conscience was telling me, at the moment, that what I was doing and what I had been doing was all wrong. It was disgusting, disrespectful and despicable. From then on, I promised I would not be like that any more. I decided to take some time for myself and reflect on my thoughts about how I should carry on my life.

In August 2007, I had met up with some old friends to celebrate my 23rd birthday. It was then that I got in touch with a friend that I have now known for about eight years and counting. By that time, I was totally sober and had had a lot of time to reflect. Anyway, this friend's name is Carissa and she had been there for me a while after my break-up with my previous girlfriend. She, herself had recently gone through the same and she only wanted to help me out. When we finally met to celebrate my 23rd birthday, we had not seen each other for about two years since the last. We kept in contact during the following months and throughout that period we had fallen for each other. We made it official on the 15th of October 2007.

At the beginning, Carissa was very skeptical that it would not work out because of past experiences with others and certain emotional scarring. I assured her that I had felt the same way, but it was time to change that way of thinking, live for the moment, and let God take care of the rest. I was successful. The two of us had become very much in love and she told me that nobody had ever made her so happy before. I shared that sentiment very much.

As time went by, I had been struggling with coping with National Service. It was very frustrating having to put up with all the rubbish I had to take at work, and subsequently I found myself taking it out on her. She tried as hard as she could to endure all these because she understood that it was just taking a toll on me. She was just wonderful and I was just horrible. I had taken for granted that she would always be there to comfort me.

It got worse when she started working for a new company which demanded more of her than her previous employers. She was working all kinds of weird night shifts and I was working morning shifts. It was practically impossible to meet at all during the week, but we still had weekends. The problem with me is that I also dedicate my weekends to my close friends, and Carissa had expressed many times that it was too much to bear. We had ended up mixing our time with time spent with friends and we just had very little opportunity to be alone with each other. Even then, we fought a lot and I just did not help it by being my egoistic self.

There came a point in our relationship when Carissa had lost almost all hope in trying to salvage anything that we had lost between ourselves and she attempted to call the whole thing off before the end of the year 2008. I had just finished National Service and was ready to begin my new life with her, but to my dismay it was not as peachy as I had planned for it. We sat down and talked about it for many nights. We cried and we suffered great pain.

At the end of it all, I realized that I had been foolish in holding on to past hurts and being stubborn about opening my eyes to see that she is really the woman I've been waiting for my whole life, and to let her slip through my hands just like that would be a terrible mistake. I poured my feelings out to Carissa and I managed to convince her that I would not make the same mistake again. She too realized that it would be almost impossible to go on without me, because of all the wonderful moments we had shared together before. We agreed to give it another try.

I'm very happy to say now that Carissa and I are pulling through and I am content. We have not reached our destination as we have a lot of catching up to do, but I have made significant improvement to my life and the way I treat her. She is happy and I am happy. We love each other and that is all that matters. We are in this together and I believe that we will get there soon.

I've learned that what we are all looking for is not really that right companion to love and depend on to get through life, but it is the aid that these people offer to go in search of the good and the bad of what is truly wonderful. Carissa has shown me many things to life that I had never been able to imagine true. She has brought me utmost joy in everything that she does, says and believes in. That is the beauty of the love that I share with her, and she has made my life a better place to be in by introducing her unique look on all things. I had tried to fight in skepticism for a long time before, but I now know that because of her I have the strength to accept myself and find confidence and assurance within myself to carry on.

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

This over ranting about someone I detest so much that killing becomes an option.

2007-12-13T13:06:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

Let’s go to a rave
And behave like we’re trippin'
simply 'cause we’re so in love

Funny hat. Shiny pants
All we need for some romance
Go get dolled up and I’ll pick you up

There’s no line for you and me
'Cause tonight we’re V.I.P.
I know somebody at the door
I see that twinkle in your eye
you shake that ass and I just die
let’s check our coats and move out to the floor

When I’m dancing with ya
tomorrow doesn’t matter
turn the music up till the windows start to shatter
'cause you’re the only one who can get me on my feet
and I can’t even dance

Look at me
Silly me
I’m as happy as could be
I have a girl who thinks I rock
And tomorrow there’s no school
So let’s go drink some more red bull
And not get home till about 6 o' clock

Everybody here is staring at the outfit that you’re wearing
Love it when they check you out
Cover’s only 20 bucks
And even if the DJ sucks, it’s time to turn this mother out

When we’re together
there’s no tomorrow
there’s no one in the world
but you and me
just you and me
you and me

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

In an effort to reach out..

2007-12-01T12:29:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

You know that it would be untrue
You know that I would be a liar
If I was to say to you
Girl, we couldn't get much higher
Come on baby, light my fire
Come on baby, light my fire
Try to set the night on fire

The time to hesitate is through
No time to wallow in the mire
Try now we can only lose
And our love become a funeral pyre
Come on baby, light my fire
Come on baby, light my fire
Try to set the night on fire, yeah

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

No Reply At All

2007-10-26T12:47:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

Talk to me, you never talk to me.
Ooh, it seems that I can speak.
I can hear my voice shoutin' out.

But there's no reply at all.

Look at me, you never look at me.
Ooh, I've been sittin, starin', seems so long.
But you're lookin' through me
Like I wasn't here at all.

No reply. There's no reply at all.

Dance with me, you never dance with me.
Ooh, it seems that I can move.
I'm close to you, close as I can get.

Yet there's no reply at all.
There's no reply at all.

I get the feelin' you're tryin' to tell me;
Is there somethin' that I should know?
What excuse are you tryin' to sell me?
Should I be readin' stop or go?
I don't know.

Be with me. Seems you're never here with me.
Ooh, I've been tryin' to get over there.
Oh, but it's out of my reach.

And there's no reply at all.
There's no reply at all.

Maybe deep down inside,
I'm tryin' for no one else but me,
too stubborn to say, "The buck stops here.
I'm not the one you're lookin' for."

But maybe deep down inside, I'm lyin'
To no one else but me.
Oh, but my back is up. I'm on my guard
With all the exits sealed.

Listen to me, you never listen to me.
Ooh, and it seems there's no way out.
I've been tryin' but we cannot connect.

And there's no reply at all.
Is anybody listenin'?
Oh, there's no reply at all...

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

I couldn't help myself...

2007-10-23T20:04:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

We watch the season pull up its own stakes
And catch the last weekend of the last week
Before the gold and the glimmer have been replaced,
Another sun soaked season fades away

You have stolen my heart

Invitation only, grand farewells
Crash the best one, of the best ones
Clear liquor and cloudy eyed, too early to say goodnight

You have stolen my heart

And from the ballroom floor we are in celebration
One good stretch before our hibernation
Our dreams assured and we all, will sleep well

You have stolen my heart

I watch you spin around in your highest heels
You are the best one, of the best ones
We all look like we feel

You have stolen my heart

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

Take a Picture

2007-09-24T16:59:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

Awake on my airplane
My skin is bear
My skin is theirs

I feel like a newborn
Awake on my airplane
I feel so real

Could you wanna take my picture?
'Cuz I won't remember

I don't believe in your sanctity
Your privacy
I don't believe in sanctity
A hypocrisy

Could everyone agree that
No one should be left alone?
Could everyone agree that
They should not be left alone?

And I feel like a newborn
Kicking and screaming

Could you wanna take my picture?
'Cuz I won't remember

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

Feel Good Rocket Summer

2007-09-08T18:27:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

Hats need a beat, like awake needs asleep
Like a pen needs a page, to re-write you need a mistake
Oh, Yeah!
Hearts need a mind, like a clock needs the time
Like white needs black, if you leave I hope you need to come back

Oh, I swear, I know, I believe it, oh
I can't stop hearing all the singin'
Oh my soul has never had this feelin'
It feels like gold

You got so much love in you
You got so much love in you
I'm amazed that I'm talkin' to you
You look like the songs that I've heard my whole life coming true

Strike all the bells, hit 'em hard make 'em all yell
Celebrate. Infatuate. Lock us up yeah incarcerate oh!

Oh, I swear, I know, I believe it, oh
I can't stop hearing all the singing
Oh my soul has never had this feeling
It feels like so, so,

So much love in you
You got so much love in you
I'm amazed that I'm talkin' to you
You look like the songs that I've heard my whole life coming true

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

The Waking

2007-08-22T04:58:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

I wake to sleep, and take my waking slow.
I feel my fate in what I cannot fear.
I learn by going where I have to go.

We think by feeling. What is there to know?
I hear my being dance from ear to ear.
I wake to sleep, and take my waking slow.

Of those so close beside me, which are you?
God bless the Ground! I shall walk softly there,
And learn by going where I have to go.

Light takes the Tree; but who can tell us how?
The lowly worm climbs up a winding stair;
I wake to sleep, and take my waking slow.

Great Nature has another thing to do
To you and me, so take the lively air,
And, lovely, learn by going where to go.

This shaking keeps me steady. I should know.
What falls away is always. And is near.
I wake to sleep, and take my waking slow.
I learn by going where I have to go.

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

Progress

2007-08-11T00:59:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

Pulling your confidence through
Some courage is well overdue
I believe solely in all your promise
Why waste a second in doubt
You could be helping you out
Keeping your head in the clear

Like an instrument for a song
Like the sun for tomorrow's dawn
Every moment of time's just an answer to find
What you're here for, what you breathe for
What you wake for, what you bleed for

Everyone's counting on you
Save for yourself what to do
Life is a card that you lay down sometimes
To search for the best way of all
Is finding the best way to fall
Keeping your head in the clear

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

SGT Olsen reports to 3rd Div. HQ/Stn. 1 - Yishun

2007-07-10T17:39:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

Yesterday, I worked my first 24-hour shift. I was unaware that my shift was to start yesterday, itself; and I stupidly reported to HQ having only slept for 3 hours the night before. I swear I thought it'd be a breeze on the first day. *Buzzer sounds* Wrong!

By the late afternoon, my body was preparing to shut down. The lack of sleep and ample nourishment left me feeling weak and giddy for most parts of the day. I stuck with SGT Musa, who taught me the ways of life at Yishun Fire Station. I shit you not. It's no joke!

Yishun Fire Station only opened for operation in the year 2005 and by now, they've managed to win the award, 'Best Fire Station in Singapore', for 2 years and running. There are plans to retain the title for another year at least. No other station in Singapore has ever accomplished this much before, and Yishun Fire Station is only 2 and a half years old! All this is owed to the very dedicated personnel and scary-assed OC, CPT Raihan.

He had briefed me on what to expect and what would be expected of me. The dude was expressionless. Almost void of life or emotion. He even admitted to being the strictest OC around, but he did claim to enjoy fishing with his men while off-duty. I wouldn't know how much of THAT is true. Well. I'd find out soon enough.

After dinner at the station, we proceeded for a night lecture. The lecture had hardly begun before the coded alarm sounded. Everyone leapt out of their seats and slid down the pole. I took the stairs. *Laughs* I was too nervous and scared. It was my first turn out.

We had a kitchen fire on our hands, in one of the flats at Yishun's HDB area. It didn't take much to put out the fire but the kitchen was pretty badly burnt. We communicated with the owners of the residence and the police. We also spent some time investigating on site to determine if the fire was to be considered accidental or incendiary. After much, it was official. The fire was classified as accidental. We packed up and left.

There were still a lot of things to be done when we got back. And by this time, I was already begging God for mercy! I went to bed at 2 a.m. and I prayed we wouldn't get another call. The rest of the night turned out to be peaceful. Thank You, God!

I got up at 5 this next morning for 'area cleaning' and then morning exercise. Equipment drills and then BTM drills were conducted after. By 8 a.m., we were already handing the shift over to the next rota. The one Mitchel belongs to. We sat down for a briefing while Mitchel's rota conducted a PPE check. Finally, we handed over the engine/vehicles and equipment before knocking off at around 10 a.m.

Oh yes. Believe it or not, but it's customary for my men to address me as 'Encik' while on-duty. I'm not worthy but rules are rules. I went out for breakfast with 2 of them. We then sat down for a couple of smokes and some chit-chat. They call me 'Nick' while off-duty, and that's cool!

I knocked out on the couch, immediately upon arriving back home! I was so exhausted!

Well, that's it for now, my good people. Just so you know what I'll be doing till I pass out from National Service. Ciao all!

P.S. This was written for those who wanted an update. I personally didn't find it much interesting but, for your benefit, all the same =)

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

Home At Last

2007-06-23T17:09:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

I know this super highway
This bright familiar sun
I guess that I'm the lucky one
Who wrote that tired sea song
Set on this peaceful shore
You think you've heard this one before

Well the danger on the rocks is surely past
Still I remain tied to the mast
Could it be that I have found my home at last
Home at last

She serves the smooth retsina
She keeps me safe and warm
It's just the calm before the storm
Call in my reservation
So long hey thanks my friend
I guess I'll try my luck again

Well the danger on the rocks is surely past
Still I remain tied to the mast
Could it be that I have found my home at last
Home at last

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

Steely 'the Dildo' Dan

2007-06-03T15:12:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

Your everlasting summer
You can see it fading fast
So you grab a piece of something
That you think is gonna last
You wouldn't know a diamond
If you held it in your hand
The things you think are precious
I can't understand

Are you reelin' in the years
Stowin' away the time
Are you gatherin' up the tears
Have you had enough of mine

You been tellin' me you're a genius
Since you were seventeen
In all the time I've known you
I still don't know what you mean
The weekend at the college
Didn't turn out like you planned
The things that pass for knowledge
I can't understand

I spend a lot of money
And I spent a lot of time
The trip we made in Hollywood
Is etched upon my mind
After all the things we've done and seen
You find another man
The things you think are useless
I can't understand

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

I am good and real because I come from the heart.

2007-05-20T17:08:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

I'm just here to say that I am who I am and I don't need nobody telling me what I can or cannot do. I don't need nobody telling me if I've changed or not. And don't nobody tell me that I'll never get there.

If you do, you'll soon find out that you are wrong and that I'm better than you. I'll be the judge of myself, thank you very much. And if you can't agree with that, then you don't really care in the first place. You're just selfish.

A true friend once said that 'love is all about acceptance'.

Many people, around me, accept me for who I am and if you can't do the same, then you don't love me. In that case, you are no friend of mine.

This goes out to anyone and everyone. Do not fool around with me.

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

DISCO KING... HYEARRGH!!!!

2007-05-12T11:15:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

I'm your boogieman....that's what I am
I'm here to do whatever I can
be it early morning, late afternoon
or at midnight, it's never too soon to
want to please you, to want to keep you;
I want to do it all, all for you.
I want to be your rubber ball
I want to be the one you love most all
Oh yeah!!!
I'm your boogie man, I'm your boogie man,
turn me on
I'm your boogie man, I'm your boogie man
I'll do what you want
I'm your boogie man, I'm your boogie man
turn me on
I'm your boogie man, I'm your boogie man
I'll do what you want
I'm your boogie man, that's what I am
I'm here to do whatever I can
Be it early morning, late afternoon
or at midnight, it's never too soon to
want to take you , to want to hold you;
I want to give my all, all to you
And I want you to completely understand
just where I'm at and where I am, Oh yeah
I'm your boogie man, I'm your boogie man
turn me on, I'm your boogie man
I'm your boogie man, I'll do what you want.
I'm your boogie man, I'm your boogie man

I'm your boogie man
turn me on
I'm your boogie man, I'm your boogie man
I'll do what you want
I'm your boogie man, that's what I am
I'm here to do whatever I can
Be it early morning, late afternoon
or at midnight, it's never too soon
I want to be with you, I want to be with
you.
Yeah, we'll be together, you and me
I want to see you; ah
Get near you, I want to love you, ah
from sundown -sun up. Oh yeah.
Oh yeah!!!

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

The Jackson 5

2007-05-08T16:12:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

Got to be there (got to be there)
Got to be there in the morning
When she says hello to the world

Got to be there (got to be there)
Got to be there in her down time
And show her that she´s my girl
Ooo what a feeling there´ll be
The moment I know she loves me
Cause when I look in her eyes I realize
I need her sharing the world beside me

So I got to be there (got to be there)
Got to be there in the morning
And welcome her into my world
And show her that she´s my girl
When she says hello world (got to be there) (got to be there)

I need her sharing the world beside me

That's why I got to be there (got to be there)
Got to be there where it all begins
And that´s everywhere she goes
I got to be there so she knows
That when she´s with me
Shes home (ooo shes home) (ooo shes home) yea

(Got to be there) got to be there, got to be there
(Got to be there) got to be there, got to be there
(Got to be there) ooh baby, baby, got to be there, got to be
there
(Got to be there) got to be there, got to be there
(Got to be there) ooh, got to be there, got to be there
(Got to be there) ooh, got to be there, got to be there

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

Miserable

2007-04-29T19:00:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

You make me come
You make me complete
You make me completely miserable
Stuck to a chair
Watchin' this story about me
Everything goes by so fast
Making my head spin
Used up all of my friends
Who needs them when you mean everything
I love the things that we should fear
I'm not afraid of being here
So much the same
It makes me helpless alone
Nothing to share
Why should I care if you're near me
Give up all of my plans
But who needs them
When you mean everything
I love the things that we should fear
I'm not afraid of being here
So much the same
You make me helpless alone
Yeah, yeah..You make me come
Yeah, yeah..You make me complete
Yeah, yeah..You make me completely miserable
I love the things that we should fear
I'm not afraid of being here
So much the same
It makes me helpless alone
You make me come
You make me complete
You make me completely miserable
Yeah, yeah..You make me come
Yeah, yeah..You make me complete
Yeah, yeah..You make me completely miserable

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

Just because I can't let it down..

2007-04-29T16:34:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

What's so childish about bringing E-hern up?!?! I can't believe i'm actually bothered to spell his name correctly! You conclude that I haven't really changed much. Yes, it's so easy to tell after you've met me like what?? Three times this year?!? You're so contradicting yourself!!!

What the fuck happened to "maybe we don't have to wait the whole two years"? Or "I really hope we can be together in the future cos I really saw it going somewhere"?

Oh yes but then, there're complications like "but you know I'll be graduating soon and I'm not ready to commit to anything right now cos of that. Oh and furthermore, I'm still seeing E-hern so that's why we can't be together".

To tell you the truth, that's the lamest bullshit I have ever heard!!! You just say that I'm bitter and grumpy as hell so you can feel better about pretending that everything is hunky dory!!!

And if I'll never be half the man that E-hern is, then WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU STILL DOING HERE?!?!? Go be with a real man, Sara!!! You want a real man?!?! you've got yourself a real man!!! You have him on your 'featured friends' list!! He's in your photo gallery. He celebrated your birthday with you intimately. You're kissing him on the cheek. You're ever close to him. Your best friend, annabel is going around telling everyone that YOU call E-hern YOUR BOYFRIEND because you guys are DATING but YOU are not sure if the two of you are in a full-blown relationship YET! and you have the cheek to tell me that you're not together?!?!?! WHY?!?! Just because it's not official yet?!?! WHAT IS THE FUCKIN' DIFFERENCE?!?!

Another question... how can you love two people at once? That is if you really do love me... dont tell me you dont love E-hern...

Yeah, you do love me. But at the same time, I'm childish and grumpy and lame and still as loserish as ever. All the reasons you broke up with me in the first place. Not good enough for you and your high life! So do you really love me or not? or do you just say these things whenever you feel like it? You already have E-hern. So then what the hell do you want with me? You want me to hang around so that you can fall back on me, in case things dont go so well with E-hern? But then again, you'd surely say, "Everything between E-hern and I is just swell". So then what am I waiting here for?

Yes, Sara. You forget that while you're out galavanting, I'm right here waiting for you, every single week. And you take for granted the fact that I'll always be there when you need me. You can do whatever you want because I will always love you, right?

Enough is enough. If you want me, come and get me.. otherwise, forget it.

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

Fin

2007-04-29T16:06:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

I killed myself today. It was painful but I had to do it. Didn't turn out like how I wanted it to but I got the job done.

I just can't do it anymore. It's easier to just forget. I don't want to feel it anymore. Please take it away. It hurts me deeply. It tears me apart.

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

The Lord knows I haven't...

2007-04-27T03:18:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

I stumbled upon a file that contained a saved MSN conversation that I didn't even know existed. It must have been saved by chance, then. It was between us. It was lovely to read. There was something I hadn't felt in a long time. It was timeless.

I stumbled upon another file. There were only two under the same category, anyway. This was painful to read. This was just days after the end. It was bitter-sweet. It was heart-wrenching. It was helpless.

And all I can ever feel is deep regret accompanied by great shame, that I drove it to its end...

Dear Jesus.. I haven't forgotten.. No, I haven't..

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

You just can't win!

2007-04-27T02:55:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

A certain somebody was telling me about how his recital got screwed up. After spilling most of it, he turned around and questioned to find out if I was plotting to use the information as juicy conversational topic with other people. Like... WTF? Apparently, he didn't like gossipers, and in that case, I was thought to be one. I found it utterly offensive and especially repulsive that he had the audacity to say it out loud at me!

I told him that I was offended by it and this is how it went from here...

dheyd σέβομαι says: (3:00:55 AM)

yah i know u wld be la haha.

Nicholas John Olsen says: (3:01:10 AM)

so then why do you say it?

dheyd σέβομαι says: (3:01:12 AM)

cos its msn . and u seem to just take topics off the shelf n talk about it

dheyd σέβομαι says: (3:01:31 AM)

just like that, and its good for conversation.

dheyd σέβομαι says: (3:01:40 AM)

but i failed to mention that i felt this is personal

dheyd σέβομαι says: (3:01:46 AM)

and i apologise

dheyd σέβομαι says: (3:02:21 AM)

and i was afriad u might unconsciously, .. out of just for fun chattin. bring it up to whoever related

dheyd σέβομαι says: (3:02:57 AM)

yeap

dheyd σέβομαι says: (3:03:12 AM)

sorry dude. and its in msn

Nicholas John Olsen says: (3:03:35 AM)

please spare me the details.. i dont wanna hear anymore of it

dheyd σέβομαι says: (3:03:48 AM)

of what?

Nicholas John Olsen says: (3:04:01 AM)

just shut it.. you're pissing me off

dheyd σέβομαι says: (3:07:00 AM)

okay that's fine, it seems to be one of my natural traits as a human being. with no intention of doing so

dheyd σέβομαι says: (3:07:24 AM)

pissing people off

dheyd σέβομαι says: (3:07:52 AM)

but ya, by all means, feel free to be angry at me

dheyd σέβομαι says: (3:07:55 AM)

i guess u have a right to be.

Nicholas John Olsen says: (3:13:17 AM)

you have to realise that other people have feelings just like you

Nicholas John Olsen says: (3:13:43 AM)

and when you say things, you need to be mindful not to offend them

dheyd σέβομαι says: (3:14:59 AM)

no comment. u just do ur thing, and i wish u all the best. and i'll just do mine.

Nicholas John Olsen says: (3:17:01 AM)

no comment?

Nicholas John Olsen says: (3:17:24 AM)

what the fuck did i do to you?

Nicholas John Olsen says: (3:17:56 AM)

i'm fuckin asking you how your bloody recital went.. and you accuse me of wanting to gossip to others about it

dheyd σέβομαι says: (3:18:16 AM)

i apologised didnt i ., that i dont like sharing personal stuff.

dheyd σέβομαι says: (3:18:25 AM)

and i didnt mention that b4 saying that.

Nicholas John Olsen says: (3:18:36 AM)

i told you the first time that you offended me and you still managed to offend me a second time after that. Furthermore, you have the audacity to 'apologize' after!

Nicholas John Olsen says: (3:19:00 AM)

what's the point?

dheyd σέβομαι says: (3:19:08 AM)

nvm

Nicholas John Olsen says: (3:19:13 AM)

you only apologize when you mean it

dheyd σέβομαι says: (3:19:14 AM)

u offended urself

Nicholas John Olsen says: (3:19:17 AM)

obviously you dont

dheyd σέβομαι says: (3:19:25 AM)

okay

dheyd σέβομαι says: (3:19:28 AM)

cheers

Nicholas John Olsen says: (3:19:29 AM)

I offended MYSELF?!?! hey fuck you!!

dheyd σέβομαι says: (3:19:34 AM)

ok thanks

dheyd σέβομαι says: (3:20:05 AM)

u get well soon. cya

Nicholas John Olsen says: (3:21:03 AM)

and if you dont like sharing personal information and if you think that i'll go telling people, then WHY THE FUCK DO YOU TELL ME IN THE FUCKING FIRST PLACE, ASSHOLE?

Nicholas John Olsen says: (3:21:22 AM)

do me a favour and dont tell me anything in the future

Nicholas John Olsen says: (3:21:25 AM)

i dont wanna know

AARRGGHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GAWD!!!! HELP ME!!!!

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

For a change..

2007-04-26T14:07:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

Hey, all you good peeps! I'm feelin' much better today, thank you.

I was thinkin.. you know.. it's been a long long time since I blogged about anything real. So! I've a great idea. I'll leave it to you guys. If there's anything (and I do mean anything) that you'd like me to blog about, just drop me a comment or tag on the cbox. I'll try my best to entertain. I'm thinkin it'll be interesting. It'll put me to the test and it'd actually bring a bit more life to the place. Agreed? So, fire away!

Thank you for reading~

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

Refresher.

2007-04-25T11:36:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

I finally have something to say. Everybody promenade~ (rural country music starts to play).

I got sent home yesterday due to a high fever and body aches, that were so bad i couldn't stand up straight. I'm still on MC today, but I was instructed to see the doctor again if it got worse today. And indeed it did. My body temperature has gone up to 38.6 (Celcius) and I've developed a viral infection of the throat. The aches are still here and my eyes feel slightly sore.

I can't tell you how much I suffered trying to fall asleep last night. Anyway, I hope I recover soon.

I dreamt of many scary things last night. Things that I haven't been dreaming of for a long while already, but apparently, they're back again. And all because...

More to come in later posts. I'm too sick.

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

One year and counting..

2007-04-22T13:21:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

Somewhere beyond the sea
Somewhere waitin’ for me
My lover stands on golden sands
And watches the ships that go sailin’.

Somewhere beyond the sea
She's there watchin’ for me
If I could fly like birds on high
Then straight to her arms I’d go sailin’.

It's far beyond the stars
It's near beyond the moon
I know beyond a doubt
My heart will lead me there soon.

We'll meet beyond the shore
We'll kiss just as before
Happy we'll be beyond the sea
And never again I'll go sailin'.

I know beyond a doubt
My heart will lead me there soon
We'll meet … I know we'll meet … beyond the shore
We'll kiss just as before.

Happy we'll be beyond the sea
And never again I'll go sailin'.

No more sailin' …
So long sailin' …
Bye, bye sailin'...
Goodbye, farewell my friend...
No more sailin'...

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

Journey

2007-04-15T13:28:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

I've been thinking 'bout the times
You walked out on me
There were moments I'd believe, you were there
Do I miss you, or am I lying to myself again

I do these things...
(It's all because of you)
I keep holding on, but I'll try
(try not to think of you)
Love don't leave me lonely
I'll be alright without you

There'll be someone else...I keep tellin' myself
I'll be alright without you
Oh...love's an empty face, I can't replace
(you don't need it)

People wonderin' why we broke apart
The great pretender here I go again
These things I do
(It's all because of you)

I'll keep holdin' but I'll try
(try not to think of you)
All I wanted was to hold you
I'll be alright without you
There'll be someone else, I keep tellin' myself

I'll be alright without you
Love's an empty face...Oh I've got to replace
I'll be alright without you
There'll be someone else, I keep tellin' myself

I'll be alright without you
Oh...love's an empty place, I can still see your face
I'll be alright

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

Look in this direction...

2007-04-14T17:30:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

All this feels strange and untrue
And I won't waste a minute without you
My bones ache, my skin feels cold
And I'm getting so tired and so old

The anger swells in my guts
And I won't feel these slices and cuts
I want so much to open your eyes
'Cause I need you to look into mine

Tell me that you'll open your eyes

Get up, get out, get away from these liars
'Cause they don't get your soul or your fire
Take my hand, knot your fingers through mine
And we'll walk from this dark room for the last time

Every minute from this minute now
We can do what we like anywhere
I want so much to open your eyes
'Cause I need you to look into mine

Tell me that you'll open your eyes

All this feels strange and untrue
And I won't waste a minute without you

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

Sinead O'Connor is just great.

2007-04-08T03:07:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

It's been seven hours and fifteen days
Since you took your love away
I go out every night and sleep all day
Since you took your love away
Since you been gone I can do whatever I want
I can see whomever I choose
I can eat my dinner in a fancy restaurant
But nothing ...
I said nothing can take away these blues,
'Cause nothing compares ...
Nothing compares to you

It's been so lonely without you here
Like a bird without a song
Nothing can stop these lonely tears from falling
Tell me baby where did I go wrong?
I could put my arms around every boy I see
But they'd only remind me of you
went to the doctor guess what he told me
Guess what he told me?
He said, girl, you better have fun
No matter what you do
But he's a fool ...
'Cause nothing compares ...
Nothing compares to you ...

All the flowers that you planted, mama
In the back yard
All died when you went away
I know that living with you baby was sometimes hard
But I'm willing to give it another try
'Cause nothing compares ...
Nothing compares to you

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

Over My Head

2007-04-01T14:12:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

I never knew
I never knew that everything was falling through
That everyone I knew was waiting on a cue
To turn and run when all I needed was the truth
But that's how it's got to be
It's coming down to nothing more than apathy
I'd rather run the other way than stay and see
The smoke and who's still standing when it clears

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind

Let's rearrange
I wish you were a stranger I could disengage
Say that we agree and then never change
Soften a bit until we all just get along
But that's disregard
Find another friend and you discard
As you lose the argument in a cable car
Hanging above as the canyon comes between

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind

And suddenly I become a part of your past
I'm becoming the part that don't last
I'm losing you and its effortless
Without a sound we lose sight of the ground
In the throw around
Never thought that you wanted to bring it down
I won't let it go down till we torch it ourselves

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

Conversation with myself...

2007-03-30T22:24:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

Slowly the pen touches paper in the guidance of the words that you write
Memories roll in, of the things you once did and who you had shared them with
Is somebody thinking of you?
Did I bother telling you this, with the words that cross teeth and jump lips?
A poor choice of words in wanting to tell you anything, but words don't come with ease.
They're forever my hurt
Would it really matter if you were to count the days left with your hands?
Your focus secure and the loves you left well
Smiles staged in photographs
You left the light on
Theres a chance I might have tripped
You were there to hold on
I'll lay awake for a while
I'll leave the light on a while
You couldn't last a lifetime caught between here and the days of it, carving her name across your arm with every wish
It's hit or miss her
I told you so
I measure distance in lines departing the rest of my life, but you had better things to do
Liar...

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

How're you doing?

2007-03-18T19:57:00.001+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

Thinking about thinking of you
Summertime think it was June
Yeah think it was June
Laying back, head on the grass
Children grown having some laughs
Yeah having some laughs.

You made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the one
The one
You made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the one
The one

Drinking back, drinking for two
Drinking with you
And drinking was new
Sleeping in the back of my car
We never went far
Needed to go far

You made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the one
The one
You made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the one
The one

I don't know where we are going now
I don't know where we are going now

Wake up cold coffee and juice
Remembering you
What happened to you?
I wonder if we'll meet again
Talk about us instead
Talk about why did it end

You made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the one
The one
You made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the one
The one

I don't know where we are going now
I don't know where we are going now

So take a look at me now

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

Please leave me out of this...

2007-03-04T06:36:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

Every time I think of you
I get a shot right through
Into a bolt of blue
It's no problem of mine
But it's a problem I find
Living the life that I can't leave behind
There's no sense in telling me
The wisdom of a fool won't set you free
But that's the way that it goes
And it's what nobody knows
And every day my confusion grows
Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for the final moment
You say the words that I can't say

I feel fine and I feel good
I feel like I never should
Whenever I get this way
I just don't know what to say
Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday
I'm not sure what this could mean
I don't think you're what you seem
I do admit to myself
That if I hurt someone else
Then I'll never see just what we're meant to be
Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for the final moment
You'll say the words that I can't say
Every time I see you falling
I'll get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for the final moment
You'll say the words that I can't say

"Bizzare Love Triangle" by Frente!

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

You and Me

2007-02-11T20:10:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

what day is it
and in what month
this clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up
and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

cause it's you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to lose
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you

all of the things that I want to say
just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping inwards
you got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

cause it's you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to prove
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you

there's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
everything she does is beautiful
everything she does is right

you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to lose
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you

you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to prove
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you

what day is it
and in what month
this clock never seemed so alive

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

Shiver

2007-02-09T23:04:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

So I looked in your direction
But you paid me no attention, do you?
I know you don't listen to me
'cause you say you see straight through me, don't you?

On and on from the moment I wake
To the moment I sleep
I'll be there by your side
Just you try and stop me
I'll be waiting in line
Just to see if you care

Did she want me to change?
But I change for good
And I want you to know
But you always get your way
I wanted to say

Don't you Shiver?

I'll always be waiting for you
So you know how much I need you
But you never even see me, do you?

And this is my final chance of getting you

On and on from the moment I wake
Did she want me to change?

Sing it loud and clear
I'll always be waiting for you
Yeah I'll always be waiting for you

And it's you I see, but you don't see me
And it's you I hear, so loud and clear
I sing it loud and clear
And I'll always be waiting for you

So I look in your direction
But you pay me no attention
And you know how much I need you
But you never even seen me

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

I am the genuine article! Cowar, as I bask in the sunlight!

2007-01-13T13:34:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

Almost Perfect- INFP
46% Extraversion, 73% Intuition, 46% Thinking, 13% Judging

So, you want to make the world a better place? Too bad it's never gonna happen.
Of all the types, you have to be one of the hardest to find fault in. You have a selfless and caring nature. You're a good listener and someone who wants to avoid conflict. You genuinely desire to do good.

Of course, these all add up to an incredibly overpowered conscience which makes you feel guilty and responsible when anything goes wrong. Of course, it MUST be your fault EVERYTIME.

Though you're constantly on a mission to find the truth, you have no use for hard facts and logic, which is a source of great confusion for those of us with brains. Despite this, in a losing argument, you're not above spouting off inaccurate fact after fact in an effort to protect your precious values.

You're most probably a perfectionist, which in this case, is a bad thing. Any group work is destined to fail because of your incredibly high standards.

Disregard what I said before. You're just easy to find fault in as everyone else!

Luckily, you're generally very hard on yourself, meaning I don't need to waste my precious time insulting you. Instead, just find all your own faults and insult yourself.

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If you want to learn more about your personality type in a slightly less negative way, check out this.

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The other personality types are as follows...

Loner - Introverted Sensing Feeling Perceiving
Pushover - Introverted Sensing Feeling Judging
Criminal - Introverted Sensing Thinking Perceiving
Borefest - Introverted Sensing Thinking Judging
Freak - Introverted iNtuitive Feeling Judging
Loser - Introverted iNtuitive Thinking Perceiving
Crackpot - Introverted iNtuitive Thinking Judging
Clown - Extraverted Sensing Feeling Perceiving
Sap - Extraverted Sensing Feeling Judging
Commander - Extraverted Sensing Thinking Perceiving
Do Gooder - Extraverted Sensing Thinking Judging
Scumbag - Extraverted iNtuitive Feeling Perceiving
Busybody - Extraverted iNtuitive Feeling Judging
Prick - Extraverted iNtuitive Thinking Perceiving
Dictator - Extraverted iNtuitive Thinking Judging

The test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 99% on Extraversion

You scored higher than 99% on Intuition

You scored higher than 99% on Thinking

You scored higher than 99% on Judging

More about INFP:

As an INFP, your primary mode of living is focused internally, where you deal with things according to how you feel about them, or how they fit into your personal value system. Your secondary mode is external, where you take things in primarily via your intuition.

INFPs, more than other iNtuitive Feeling types, are focused on making the world a better place for people. Their primary goal is to find out their meaning in life. What is their purpose? How can they best serve humanity in their lives? They are idealists and perfectionists, who drive themselves hard in their quest for achieving the goals they have identified for themselves

INFPs are highly intuitive about people. They rely heavily on their intuitions to guide them, and use their discoveries to constantly search for value in life. They are on a continuous mission to find the truth and meaning underlying things. Every encounter and every piece of knowledge gained gets sifted through the INFP's value system, and is evaluated to see if it has any potential to help the INFP define or refine their own path in life. The goal at the end of the path is always the same - the INFP is driven to help people and make the world a better place.

Generally thoughtful and considerate, INFPs are good listeners and put people at ease. Although they may be reserved in expressing emotion, they have a very deep well of caring and are genuinely interested in understanding people. This sincerity is sensed by others, making the INFP a valued friend and confidante. An INFP can be quite warm with people he or she knows well.

INFPs do not like conflict, and go to great lengths to avoid it. If they must face it, they will always approach it from the perspective of their feelings. In conflict situations, INFPs place little importance on who is right and who is wrong. They focus on the way that the conflict makes them feel, and indeed don't really care whether or not they're right. They don't want to feel badly. This trait sometimes makes them appear irrational and illogical in conflict situations. On the other hand, INFPs make very good mediators, and are typically good at solving other people's conflicts, because they intuitively understand people's perspectives and feelings, and genuinely want to help them.

INFPs are flexible and laid-back, until one of their values is violated. In the face of their value system being threatened, INFPs can become aggressive defenders, fighting passionately for their cause. When an INFP has adopted a project or job which they're interested in, it usually becomes a "cause" for them. Although they are not detail-oriented individuals, they will cover every possible detail with determination and vigor when working for their "cause".

When it comes to the mundane details of life maintenance, INFPs are typically completely unaware of such things. They might go for long periods without noticing a stain on the carpet, but carefully and meticulously brush a speck of dust off of their project booklet.

INFPs do not like to deal with hard facts and logic. Their focus on their feelings and the Human Condition makes it difficult for them to deal with impersonal judgment. They don't understand or believe in the validity of impersonal judgment, which makes them naturally rather ineffective at using it. Most INFPs will avoid impersonal analysis, although some have developed this ability and are able to be quite logical. Under stress, it's not uncommon for INFPs to mis-use hard logic in the heat of anger, throwing out fact after (often inaccurate) fact in an emotional outburst.

INFPs have very high standards and are perfectionists. Consequently, they are usually hard on themselves, and don't give themselves enough credit. INFPs may have problems working on a project in a group, because their standards are likely to be higher than other members' of the group. In group situations, they may have a "control" problem. The INFP needs to work on balancing their high ideals with the requirements of every day living. Without resolving this conflict, they will never be happy with themselves, and they may become confused and paralyzed about what to do with their lives.

INFPs are usually talented writers. They may be awkward and uncomfortable with expressing themselves verbally, but have a wonderful ability to define and express what they're feeling on paper. INFPs also appear frequently in social service professions, such as counselling or teaching. They are at their best in situations where they're working towards the public good, and in which they don't need to use hard logic.

INFPs who function in their well-developed sides can accomplish great and wonderful things, which they will rarely give themselves credit for. Some of the great, humanistic catalysts in the world have been INFPs.

Jungian functional preference ordering:

Dominant: Introverted Feeling
Auxiliary: Extraverted Intuition
Tertiary: Introverted Sensing
Inferior: Extraverted Thinking

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The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

Happy New Year

2007-01-02T15:28:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

When you try your best but you don’t succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can’t sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can’t replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you’re too in love to let it go
But if you never try you’ll never know
Just what you’re worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And i…
Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And i…

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

"Platoon 7, Gangstuh~"!!!

2006-12-16T10:04:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

I'm back for the weekend and SCDF is an eye-opener, although it really isn't since I kinda knew what I was getting myself into. Gosh, PTP is a killer, yeah? Whoah, Terok! My arms are aching so much from all those push-ups and the PTIs are bloody ruthless. I swear some people there (I won't mention races =P) find it difficult to follow instructions and then everyone gets it.

I am in allegiance with the notorious platoon no.7 of the happening Charlie Company. The worst bunch of the whole 102nd in-take. We're loud and mischievous, but we make up for it in earnest, team spirit.

I've learnt a lot from just one week. I've never drunk so much water or eaten so frequently in my entire life. Yet, I'm not putting on that much weight. Three heavy meals, one snack and at least two water parades every day. My stomach is expanding against my liking, but it's for the better. Gotta prep-up for the IPPT and pass it with flying colours and secure myself an opportunity to engage with the ERS vocation. Something to drive me and look forward to, so my stay there would be far from futile.

So it's 4 weeks of PTP (Physical Training Phase), 6 weeks of BRT (Basic Rescue Training) and 24 weeks of ERS vocation training (if possible). In that case, I'll be spending a total of 8.5 months at Jalan Bahar before I get posted somewhere near home to finally command a battalion of fire fighters and serve the nation. I pray I succeed, or else I'd be quite upset with myself.

Anyway, just FYI, I'll be out of camp and back home on Friday evenings and back in camp on Sunday evenings (provided I don't have to stay behind for guard duty).

I hope I can catch up with the good people this weekend before I go in for an even tougher week of PTP. My instructors have warned about the 2nd week being hell week. Damn it. Prepare my funeral service, thanks. HAHA! Just kidding. Brave the storm and emerge bed-ridden! Another joke. OK I stop here for now.

Till the next, my good people!

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

Time to Say 'Goodbye'.

2006-12-11T23:53:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

I spent my day with the guys. Brad, Marcus, Chris, Bob and Jeremy. Thanks for making it a memorable one. We'll hang out again soon.

It's BRT for me, eight hours from now. I'm anxious.

It's not fear.

It's a feeling I can't seem to be able to express verbally.

Only one thing bothers me. The fact that it's so uncertain. I don't even have the courage to express myself on this issue. I never thought I'd resort to deluding myself just to make myself forget that I hurt almost everyday. I feel like a sell-out. I feel so 'chicken'. I feel so helpless. I feel like I'm hiding from certain truths because, for once, I CAN'T DEAL WITH IT. Failure.

It's a disease. A curse. A phobia. How can I be afraid? I used to be so full of it. So able to take it. Now, I don't even dare think of it just because I know I can't take it. What's become of me? Change is good, but sometimes I don't know whether I like some of it. I wonder if you feel the same inside. It doesn't seem to affect you. And I think it's just fucked up that I have to go through this like a wounded animal.

The fear of rejection plagues me like it has never before. My heart is just itching for a break. A break it'll never get. The pains it endures day in and day out are unbearable. You have a weapon of choice. One called 'Indifference'. It may be a defense but I assure you it is highly potent. Amidst all this, I finally plucked the courage to say what I've been wanting to say for the longest time. It's still no good.

When will the dust settle? I know I'm asking for too much. Let me rant. I need to. I've hidden it all inside for too long. I know it's not practical. It's never practical. Sometimes I wonder if it's waiting for me to totally change so I can be good enough or whether it's waiting for when you have the patience. Maybe I'm the only one feeling this way and maybe all this ranting is for shit, but the truth is it's frustrating.

Just when will the dust fall? How are we so sure that it's gonna be two years from now? How would anyone know? How would anything happen if everyone just sits back to relax about it? Are we waiting for something to happen?

I don't even know what I'm saying anymore...

It's such a torture that I can't say all the things I really wanna say for fear of being 'politically incorrect'. For fear of being in breach of the 'peace treaty'. For fear of upsetting the peace.

For fear of losing the one thing I treasure most. The one thing I can't have. The one thing I so dearly desire.

These feelings are stronger than any of you know. It's not funny anymore. I can't even express myself when I want to. Not because I lack the ability, but because I lack the opportunity (or the courage). I can't help but feel alone. I know I have good friends and family supporting me, but nobody knows how I really feel. Why is that? It's because nobody knows what I'm feeling. They may know, but they don't know how really painful it is because they're not me and they haven't been through the same.

So much to say.. just because I haven't been expressing myself. I decided it's time. Just before I go in.

Thank you and good night...

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

Hide and Seek

2006-12-07T19:51:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

Where are we? What the hell is going on?
The dust has only just begun to fall,
Crop circles in the carpet, sinking, feeling.
Spin me round again and rub my eyes.
This can't be happening.
When busy streets a mess with people
would stop to hold their heads heavy.

Hide and seek.
Trains and sewing machines.
All those years they were here first.

Oily marks appear on walls
Where pleasure moments hung before.
The takeover, the sweeping insensitivity of this
still life.

Hide and seek.
Trains and sewing machines. (Oh, you won't catch me around here)
Blood and tears,
They were here first.

Mmm, what you say?
Mm, that you only meant well? Well, of course you did.
Mmm, what you say?
Mm, that it's all for the best? Ah off course it is.
Mmm, what you say?
Mm, that it's just what we need? And you decided this.
Mmm what you say?
What did she say?

Ransom notes keep falling out your mouth.
Mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut-outs.
Speak no feeling, no I don't believe you.
You don't care a bit. You don't care a bit.

Ransom notes keep falling out your mouth.
Mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut-outs.
Speak no feeling, no I don't believe you.
You don't care a bit. You don't care a bit.

You don't care a bit.
You don't care a bit.
You don't care a bit.
You don't care a bit.
You don't care a bit.

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

Don't Stop Believing

2006-12-06T08:14:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

Just a small town girl, livin' in a lonely world
She took the midnight train goin' anywhere
Just a city boy, born and raised in south Detroit
He took the midnight train goin' anywhere

A singer in a smokey room
A smell of wine and cheap perfume
For a smile they can share the night
It goes on and on and on and on

Strangers waiting, up and down the boulevard
Their shadows searching in the night
Streetlight people, living just to find emotion
Hiding, somewhere in the night

Working hard to get my fill,
everybody wants a thrill
Payin' anything to roll the dice,
just one more time
Some will win, some will lose
Some were born to sing the blues
Oh, the movie never ends
It goes on and on and on and on

Don't stop believin'
Hold on to the feelin'
Streetlight people

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

I look just like Buddy Holly~

2006-11-30T19:42:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

What's with these homies, dissing my girl?
Why do they gotta front?
What did we ever do to these guys
That made them so violent?
Woo-hoo, but you know I'm yours
Woo-hoo, and I know you're mine
Woo-hoo, and that's for all time

Oo-ee-oo I look just like Buddy Holly
Oh-oh, and you're Mary Tyler Moore
I don't care what they say about us anyway
I don't care bout that

Don't you ever fear, I'm always near
I know that you need help
Your tongue is twisted, your eyes are slit
You need a guardian
Woo-hoo, and you know I'm yours
Woo-hoo, and I know you're mine
Woo-hoo, and that's for all time

Oo-ee-oo I look just like Buddy Holly
Oh-oh, and you're Mary Tyler Moore
I don't care what they say about us anyway
I don't care bout that
I don't care bout that

Bang, bang a knock on the door
Another big bang and you're down on the floor
Oh no! What do we do?
Don't look now but I lost my shoe
I can't run and I can't kick
What's a matter babe are you feeling sick?
what's a matter, what's a matter, what's a matter you?
What's a matter babe, are you feeling blue? oh-oh!
And that's for all time
And that's for all time

Oo-ee-oo I look just like Buddy Holly
Oh-oh, and you're Mary Tyler Moore
I don't care what they say about us anyway
I don't care bout that
I don't care bout that
I don't care bout that
I don't care bout that

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

Too Young

2006-11-29T03:03:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

Baby when I saw you turning at the end of the street
I knew a time was gone and it took me like ages
Just to understand that I was afraid to be a simple guy
I tried my best to smile but deep inside my heart
I felt it was shouting like a crowd dancing
I guess I couldn't live without the things that made my life what it is
Can't you hear it calling oh yeah
Everybody's dancin'
Tonight everything is over
I feel too young

I can't lie on my bed without thinking I was wrong
But when this feeling calls this world becomes another
Nighttime won't hold me in your arms again
I got a very good friend who says he can't believe the love I give
Is not enough to end your fears
I guess I couldn't live without the things that made my life what it is
Can't you hear it calling oh yeah
Everybody's shakin' oh yeah
Tonight everything is over
I feel too young

Oh rainfalls and hard times coming they won't leave me tonight
I wish I knew what I was doing
Just do let this spirit survive
Can't you hear me calling oh yeah
I guess I couldn't live without the things that made my life what it is
Can't you hear me calling oh yeah
Everybody's dancing oh yeah
Tonight everything is over
I feel too young

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

Jeff Buckley kills...

2006-11-28T04:22:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

Looking out the door I see the rain fall upon the funeral mourners
Parading in a wake of sad relations as their shoes fill up with water
And maybe I'm too young to keep good love from going wrong
But tonight you're on my mind so you never know

When I'm broken down and hungry for your love with no way to feed it
Where are you tonight, child you know how much I need it
Too young to hold on and too old to just break free and run

Sometimes a man gets carried away, when he feels like he should be having his fun
And much too blind to see the damage he's done
Sometimes a man must awake to find that really, he has no-one

So I'll wait for you... and I'll burn
Will I ever see your sweet return
Oh will I ever learn

Oh lover, you should've come over
'Cause it's not too late

Lonely is the room, the bed is made, the open window lets the rain in
Burning in the corner is the only one who dreams he had you with him
My body turns and yearns for a sleep that will never come

It's never over, my kingdom for a kiss upon her shoulder
It's never over, all my riches for her smiles when I slept so soft against her
It's never over, all my blood for the sweetness of her laughter
It's never over, she's the tear that hangs inside my soul forever

Well maybe I'm just too young
To keep good love from going wrong

Oh... lover, you should've come over
'Cause it's not too late

Well I feel too young to hold on
And I'm much too old to break free and run
Too deaf, dumb, and blind to see the damage I've done
Sweet lover, you should've come over
Oh, love well I'm waiting for you

Lover, you should've come over
'Cause it's not too late

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

Pink Moon

2006-11-27T18:56:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

I saw it written and I saw it say
Pink moon is on its way
And none of you stand so tall
Pink moon gonna get you all
It's a pink moon
It's a pink, pink, pink, pink, pink moon.

Depressed, arty poets are geniuses! Too bad they always die young...

Kudos to Nicholas Rodney Drake!

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

And so it begins...

2006-11-26T13:02:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

Fei and Crue demand an update. I shall bore the good people with a rant!

I am sitting here thinking of what to write. As I do that, I am trekking through my previous thoughts and would like to establish that I awoke at 11 this morning, played along to 'River Man' on Trusty Rusty, moved on to the piano outside and then had day-old mee soto for breakfast. Mentioning coffee, to go along with it, would be understating the inevitable.

It's the Civil Defence Force for me in about two weeks and I have plans. Big plans for world-dominance. By side-tracking, I was thinking of possible reasons for the system enrolling me to a force that caters mostly to gangsters and delinquents. I know I've been referred to as a delinquent many times *think Derek Tan*, but I never took that seriously nor did I ever welcome the notion.

On the thought of being a gangster, I was fantasizing about being a schizophrenic with a split-personality and by night, I'm some big-time mob-boss. That would explain why I'm being thrown in with the whole lot, yeah? My presence would be highly anticipated either because they want my head for various, unknown reasons or they just wanna make merry. Who knows?

OK. Back on schedule. Big plans. Yes, big plans.

1) Prepare physically and mentally for BRT that starts on the 12th of December.
2) Brave the storm and emerge an ERS (Escape & Rescue Specialist) ranking as Sergeant to command a troop and earn about a
thousand per month.
3) Save that money to fund the renovation of my bedroom to turn it into my own personal recording station for future use.
4) Learn how to use 'Garage Band' and the other accessories on my 'Mac mini' to become tech-savvy, at least, in my own
room.
5) Purchase a number of accessories and add-ons like the BR-1600CD Digital Studio (by Roland), A keyboard, Jam-packs
(by Garage Band), a Midi interface, other miscellaneous electronics and maybe even a GT-8 Effects Panel (by Roland).
6) Send guitars and bass for general servicing.
7) Private lessons from Timothy O'Dwyer - Orchestrating/arranging skills + alto saxophone.
8) Private vocal lessons from Amanda Colliver?
9) Additional private guitar, bass and drum lessons to complete the whole image of 'Musically-inclined Superman'.
10) Get my long-awaited license to drive.
11) Load up on Music.
12) Prepare material, in the mean time, to use when auditioning or while undertaking Degree in Composition on the new
Lasalle-SIA campus, which will take place only after passing out from the Civil Defence Force by the end of 2008.
13) Work continuously on side-line projects such as the 'Lovely Bunch of Coconuts', the 'Neo-acoustic Trio' and possibly
'Mistaken Identity' (if they'd consider taking me in as one of the crew to arrange/orchestrate their music).
14) Eventually, create the 'Super Band' fit for the 'Musically-inclined Superman'.
15) Find work to sustain me further after National Service.
16) Prepare for the biggest graduation show ever in the history of the Lasalle-SIA (Music Faculty).

That's it for now but basically, my aims are to better myself totally and make full, good use of these next few years instead of being stagnant. My music and my future have got to be top-priority.

P.S. If any of you need help with arranging/orchestrating music for ensembles/groups, or know of people who are in need of expertise in that area, do not hesitate to drop me a line. I will be more than glad to help and practice my talent. I'm also interested in composing for various musical/movie soundtracks and pop/sub-pop acts. Thank you. My contact is 90185506 - Nicholas J. Olsen.

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

River Man

2006-11-24T20:30:00.001+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

Betty came by on her way
Said she had a word to say
About things today
And fallen leaves.

Said she hadn't heard the news
Hadn't had the time to choose
A way to lose
But she believes.

Going to see the river man
Going to tell him all I can
About the plan
For lilac time.

If he tells me all he knows
About the way his river flows
And all night shows
In summertime.

Betty said she prayed today
For the sky to blow away
Or maybe stay
She wasn't sure.

For when she thought of summer rain
Calling for her mind again
She lost the pain
And stayed for more.

Going to see the river man
Going to tell him all I can
About the ban
On feeling free.

If he tells me all he knows
About the way his river flows
I don't suppose
It's meant for me.

Oh, how they come and go
Oh, how they come and go

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

'Deceitful' by Nicholas J. Olsen

2006-11-18T07:10:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

We share a love
It was said we would be going farther
Tell me again and again
There isn't any other
Tell me you want me to stay
Join in the fun and laughter
My heart is beating so quick
It wouldn't any faster

I love the way you are
And when I get to know you better
I love the way you smile
And we don't wanna let it falter
I love the way you move
We'll dance all night and when it's over
I love the way you kiss
Ooh, I love the way you kiss

I love the way you kiss
Oh, you're not there
I love the way you move
Oh, I'm waiting
I love the way you kiss
Oh, you're not there
I love the way you move
Oh, you're just an illusion

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

'Ever After' by Nicholas J. Olsen

2006-11-17T04:47:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

A million years away, I'd like to be the one to embrace her
"Oh, so sweet!"
Around me, are the people that remind me of a time I was so happy
Now, I've got to be content with being sappy

I'm feeling down for far too long
Tell me what I'm doing wrong
We always sing the same old song
Tell me what we're doing wrong

"Discontent! Hello!"
I greet you to a lifetime that will bind me to a sadness never longed for
What I want is not exactly what I'm getting
What I've got is not a simple understanding

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

'Dreaming of You' by Nicholas J. Olsen

2006-11-16T18:36:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

Sleepless
I am sleepless without you
Hopeless
Hey, just what am I to do?

Speechless
There is nothing left to say
Lovely
How much more of you to take?

I am dreaming of you

Moonlight shimmers down and through my window
It reminds me
I remember I was broken

I am dreaming of you
Are you dreaming of me?
I am dreaming of you
Baby, can't you see?

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

In Celebration of the Occasion

2006-11-15T01:06:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

What moonsongs
Do you sing your babies?
What sunshine do you bring?

Who belongs
Who decides who's crazy
Who rights wrongs where others cling?

I'll sing for you
If you want me to
I'll give to you
And it's a chance I'll have to take
And it's a chance I'll have to break

I go along
Just because I'm lazy
I go along to be with you

And those moonsongs
That you sing your babies
Will be the songs to see you through

I'll hear your song
If you want me to
I'll sing along
And it's a chance I'll have to take
And it's a chance I'll have to break

I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you

I'm in love with you
So in love
I'm in love with you
With you
I'm in love with you

I'm in love with you
So in love
I'm in love with you
I'm
I'm so in love
I'm in love with you

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

'Insomnia' by Nicholas J. Olsen

2006-11-14T01:58:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

Baby, you are in my arms tonight
Tonight, you are in my arms
Oh yeah, we have got to try to fall asleep
And you know we should be counting sheep

Calling once and calling twice
Oh dear God, make it right
Is it wrong to be right?
I just wanna feel alright
Kiss me once and kiss me twice
Oh dear God, what is right?
What is right? What is right?
I feel alright

Baby, you are in my arms tonight
In my dreams, you are in my arms
Oh yeah, we have got to try to fall asleep
And you know we should be counting sheep

But instead, I'm thinkin' deep
Do you know I'm about to weep?
Someone else should take my seat
'Cos it's too late

Now I feel alright
I'm feelin' right
I feel alright
I'm feelin' right

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

'Change' by Nicholas J. Olsen

2006-11-13T03:47:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

Lately, I'm just lazy and I'm crazy for you
Maybe I'm unsteady and I'm not ready for it
Baby's acting shady
And I try to be a lover
Not a hater; not a sinner
I'd forgotten I was open to the changes I had spoken so much of

Never been torn in my life before
See it come and see it go
We know that if change is what you feel is right, I'll show

Wo-oh wo-oh, I am feelin' it tonight
You know I won't go, oh
I try and I try to be what you feel is right
I know it don't show, oh
This love is real
I can feel it strong tonight
It seems that you don't know
I try and I try to be what you feel is right
You know I won't go, oh

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

You Should Be...

2006-11-11T01:32:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

I graduated from Lasalle-SIA College of the Arts today. I got a band together to play my original music to be showcased and graded by a panel of examiners that consisted of Lindsay, Mona and a guest veteran who goes by the initials, J.S. apparently. All three of them had very nice things to say about my work efforts.

Lindsay stressed that it was an excellent show and that it was very heartfelt. Mona added that I've come a very long way and that I've shown great potential for future events. J.S. was very impressed by my ability to cover a lot of different genres altogether, and also fuse them together in certain pieces. Lots more were said, but the bottom line was that everyone enjoyed it very much.

There will be no more school for the next 2 years as I have to enter into the Singapore Civil Defence Force as service to my country. I plan to continue with a degree in the same course at Lasalle-SIA when I'm finally done with National Service.

Today marks a new beginning for me and I'm glad I don't have to put up with any more trouble that I've endured during this last semester and yet, I feel lost. Somehow, it's not as bright and sunny as it's supposed to seem. I still feel empty. Something is missing and I know what it is. My elation is stifled because of this and I don't feel too good. Uncertainty, is filling my mind with questions. Is it foolish to entertain? Is it selfish to guard? Is it wrong to want? Is it right to discard?

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

Cheesy Chicago

2006-11-09T06:28:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

If you leave me now, you'll take away the biggest part of me
No baby please don't go
If you leave me now, you'll take away the very heart of me
No baby please don't go
Oh girl, I just want you to stay

A love like ours is love that's hard to find
How could we let it slip away
We've come too far to leave it all behind
How could we end it all this way
When tomorrow comes we'll both regret
Things we said today

A love like ours is love that's hard to find
How could we let it slip away
We've come too far to leave it all behind
How could we end it all this way
When tomorrow comes we'll both regret
Things we said today

If you leave me now, you'll take away the biggest part of me
No baby please don't go
Oh girl, just got to have you by my side
No baby, please don't go
Oh mama, I just got to have your lovin, yeah
We've come too far to leave it all behind

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

I have the right to feel, think & express.

2006-11-07T03:57:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

And Aubrey was her name,
A not so very ordinary girl or name.
But who's to blame?
For a love that wouldn't bloom
For the hearts that never played in tune.
Like a lovely melody that everyone can sing,
Take away the words that rhyme it doesn't mean a thing.

And Aubrey was her name.
We tripped the light and danced together to the moon,
But where was June.
No it never came around.
If it did it never made a sound,
Maybe I was absent or was listening to fast,
Catching all the words, but then the meaning going past,

But God I miss the girl,
And I'd go a thousand times around the world just to be
Closer to her than to me.

And Aubrey was her name,
I never knew her, but I loved her just the same,
I loved her name.
Wish that I had found the way
And the reasons that would make her stay.
I have learned to lead a life apart from all the rest.
If I can't have the one I want, I'll do without the best.

But how I miss the girl
And I'd go a million times around the world just to say
She had been mine for a day.

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

And I Saw You Standing There~~~

2006-11-04T09:04:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

You saw me. I know you saw me standing right there, in front of you, trying to greet you. What do you do? You turn your cheek. What do I do? I laugh. I'm tickled. Did you turn your cheek so I can slap it? But enough of jokes for now.

The last time I was with you, you were apologizing to me for God knows what, now! You love me as a friend? Yes, that's right, Mr. Flaky. You. Is this how you treat a friend that you love? I mean, come on, I'm only taking your word for it. What ever happened to that little thing called 'honour'? What about 'dignity'? What about plain stick to what you friggin' say, man??? If you can't keep up to it then don't say it, man. Oh yes, now. Go ahead and blame it on the alcohol. Blame it on everyone but yourself.

You know? I've actually seen that look on your face before. T'was a long time ago - the very reason you were apologizing your sorry self to me for. I said this once before and I'll say it again. Nothing has/had ever come in between the two of us. Come on, you know what I'm talking about. I couldn't even accept your apology because there was no need for an apology in the first place. I never held anything against you, whilst you held some against me. I never went to you for an explanation. I didn't need one. Friends shouldn't need to explain themselves. You know what I mean, homie? Love is unconditional, yo? Oh yeah, it's also about acceptance! A great person told me that once.

For all the things that have happened, not once did I turn my cheek away from you. Are you trying to prove a point? Like if you turn your cheek away from me, I will blog about it here? If yes, then well... THE PRICE IS RIGHT, MY FRIEND!!! *Bells ringing* Come on down! You have earned a place on the hot seat! AH CHA CHA CHA CHA CHA!

Anyway, for all the times I helped you out, I get this from you. Not once but twice. Apologies in between, as well. And guess what? I never even asked for favours back... shhhh... I won't tell if you won't, yah? I wonder if, one day, you might come and say, "Hey dude, I'm sorry for BLAH BLAH BLAH". You know? I'll probably still go like, "Yeah man, it's no problem". I go soft like that, but you know what? What I'd really like to say is, "your apologies are becoming meaningless and they make the friendship all the more questionable, so why bother"?

Allow me, also, to finally touch on what I think of your tactical methods to ignore me. To be honest, not so good la. One moment, you're all smiley-faced and then you curl up like a sulky spider when you see my face (strike one). I come up to greet you, despite my keen awareness of your ignoring me, you look at me and then you turn away with disgust (strike two). That's... oh so manly of you, really. It's like you're some kind of specimen on the discovery channel and everyone else is observing how you unleash your defense-mechanisms on your enemies. Then, I let it go and carry on my own business. You, then, proceed to sneak peaks at me while you THINK I'm not looking from the corner of my eye. And then, BAM! Strike three - you're out, baby!

What does this tell me? You're the only one who is getting affected by this whole fiasco. You waste so much energy on trying to ignore me. You harbour so much hatred inside your heart. Why? In the end, you're only gonna hurt yourself and nobody else. I still can't bring myself to harbour hate for you, nor anyone for that matter. It might comfort you to know that that night, I went home and I prayed for you to be liberated from your hatred. Peace, man.

"I've come to accept the fact that people talk about me, feel intimidated by me, question my twist in accents, hate the way I walk, diss the way my posture fits and my taste in labels. But you know what? It's fine by me, because I'm not the one with the issues here." - Juliana Ong.

By the way, that's a very gutsy thing to write about on your friendster profile, dudette! My hat is off!

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

Oh Well

2006-11-03T13:41:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

Since you've been gone I've been lonely
Longing to be with you only
Maybe there's still is a way I can find you and say
Just how I feel.

I can't believe that's it's over
Wish somehow I could have showed her
All that was inside of my heart 'stead of playing the games
You might have stayed

Funny just the other night I was thinking
I wonder if you ever think about me
I call you on the phone, there's no answer

Oh Well, there's still tomorrow
Oh Well, I'll try again
Oh Well, maybe just maybe

Since you've been gone I've been lonely
Longing to be with you only
If there's a way I could beg you to stay would you please
Stay with me.

I was thinking maybe I could come over
Hoping we could finally work this out
Even if tonight we don't find an answer

Oh Well, there's still tomorrow
Oh Well, I'll try again
Oh Well, maybe just maybe

If I had another chance
We would stand hand in hand
You'll be my girl and I'll be your man
Oh Well, maybe just maybe we can.

I still call you on the phone still no answer
Maybe later on I'll try one more time
Or am I just a fool to keep trying

Oh Well, there's still tomorrow
Oh Well, a fool's what I am
Oh Well, maybe just maybe

Oh Well, there's still tomorrow
Oh Well, I'll try again
Oh Well, maybe just maybe
See if I got down on my knees and gave you every little part of
me.

Oh Well, there's still tomorrow
Oh Well, I'll try again
Oh Well, maybe just maybe

Since you've been gone I've been lonely

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

Beautiful

2006-10-18T05:49:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

I was looking for a favourite 'testimonial' that was submitted for me, by a friend, on 'Friendster'.

In case some of you 'imaginary' readers might not know, 'Friendster' was created as a means of connecting with people, whom you are acquainted with, freely via the internet (provided that they, as well, do subscribe to it). Friends can write and submit you 'testimonials' as proof of your genuineness and also, done simply as a favour, to beautify your 'profile' on your respectful page so you'd appear alluring and attract as many new 'friends' as you possibly can.

To my astonishment, I had noticed that I am currently unable to access my recently-deemed favourite 'testimonial' along with a few others as well. It seems almost as if these have been quietly lifted off my 'profile' or have simply disappeared miraculously.

In any case, this had led me to browse through the 'testimonials' that I had previously received over the past three years or so. I started from the top down, breezing through any significant piece of writing between August of 2003 and now. That is October of 2006.

I have never smiled to myself so much in the past six months. I even laughed a little at the humour of some. The feeling was heart-warming. Those moments will always be precious to me, and I would not have traded them for the world. For good or bad, they brought lessons to be learnt. Moments to be cherished. And hearts to be embraced. How many of us have the courage or the strength to admit that, even to ourselves?

Many had caught my attention, but not all as well as this one:

Posted 3/4/2004

Beautiful,you're beautiful,as beautiful
as the sun.Wonderful,you're wonderful,as
wonderful as they come.And i can't help
but feel attached to the feelings i
can't even match.With my face pressed up
to the glass,wanting you.Beautiful,
you're beautiful,as beautiful as the
sky.Wonderful,it's wonderful to know
that you're just like I.And i'm sure you
know me well,as i'm sure you don't but
you just can't tell,who you'll you love
and who you won't.And i love you,as you
love me.So let the clouds roll by your
face,we'll let the world spin on to
another place.We'll climb the tallest
tree above it all to look down on you
and me and them.And i'm sure you know me
well,as i'm sure you don't but you just
can't tell,who you'll love and who you
won't.

I did not edit this one, so as to keep it's authenticity intact.

Am I really beautiful? I believe I am, but do you really? It hurts me so, to know that I am no longer anywhere near beautiful in your eyes. Could it be? That you had been so blind to not realize that I was, in fact, 'hideous' from the very beginning? So much that you would take back all you have said in your past? Do you feel that a part of you had died because you discovered that I was, indeed, 'ugly'?

I have not changed my perception of you, despite of all this. And I never will. You will remain beautiful in my eyes, as you are in God's. Do not doubt my sincerity. Do not doubt my passion. Will I wait a lonely lifetime? If you want me to, I will.

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

Ridiculously Hilarious

2006-10-17T02:50:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

I heard from a friend, who heard from a friend, that Nicholas John Olsen has been 'leading an army' against Sara Wei Ruyu and Lee Kokliang. This is a complete and utter absurdity. It's madness! Nicholas John Olsen has no means for conjuring up such an apparent monstrosity, nor has he a reason to do so.

What good might it do him if he is supposed to be leaving in December? Why would he even think to do such a thing to a precious loved one? I'd say that the lies that people have been believing, have had a significant impact on their wild imaginations. The false information that they've been fed has made people fearful. Fearful of what might come next.

"Perhaps," they might say, "perhaps Nicholas John Olsen is coming for us! For we know his deepest, darkest sins!"

"Nay," an elder reasons in disbelief, "It can't be so... could it?"

"Alas," someone shouts from the back, "he'll be comin' along with his demolition army too!"

"Aye! That must be it," they all exclaim, "We'd best get to our positions and defend ourselves against the attack!"

What rubbish! Nicholas John Olsen is not leading an army against Sara Wei Ruyu and Lee Kokliang. Could it be that some people might like to believe that this is true, because they've got nothing else better to do with their lives? Are people just, generally, sadistic?

Give it all a break once and for all. Nicholas John Olsen does not deserve to endure all this incessant, theatrical bullshit. He has not done anything to provoke any of these people, yet they continue to persecute him. And for what, really? Nothing. They know not what they do, yet he merely sits here and he takes it.

Open up your eyes and come to terms with the fact that they're only discontent with themselves. Just waiting to blame the next person they can pin everything on. Amidst all this happening, Nicholas John Olsen maintains an understanding for these people that persecute him. He even forgives them.

And a creepy, evil laughter echoes down the hallway for added effect.

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

Indifference

2006-10-09T18:07:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

You feel disgusted. You don't wanna see me. You don't wanna acknowledge me. You wanna pretend I'm not here. Is that even supposed to affect me? What bloody difference does it make? It was all the same before. As if this changes anything that's been happening.

I don't feel any different. Do you? I shouldn't suppose so. This whole thing has been so unbelievably redundant. You really must be confusing yourself. The act of condemnation is for those who feel inadequate, so please don't do it unnecessarily.

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

Listen to Rastaman

2006-10-06T16:24:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

In high seas or-a low seas,
I'm gonna be your friend;
I'm gonna be your friend.
In-a high tide or-a low tide,
I'll be by your side;
I'll be by your side.

I heard her praying - praying - praying
I said, I heard my mother;
She was praying
And the words that she said,
They still-a lingers in my head.
She said, "A child is born in this world,
He needs protection.
God, guide and protect us.
When we're wrong, please correct us,
And stand by me."

High seas or-a low seas,
I'm gonna be your friend;
He said, "I'm gonna be your friend."
And, baby, high tide or low tide,
I'll be by your side;
I'll be by your side.

I said, I heard my mother;
She was cryin'
And the tears that she shed,
They still lingers in my head.
She said, "A child is born in this world,
He needs protection.
God, guide and protect us.
When we're wrong correct us."
And in high seas or low seas,
I'm gonna be your friend;
I'm gonna be your friend.
Said, "High tide or low tide,
I'll be by your side;
I'll be by your side

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

For Your Benefit

2006-10-01T18:07:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

I can't believe what I'm hearing. What I've been hearing. What I might be hearing again and again. Just over about 2 months ago, I put myself through an ordeal that set me on the track for a complete revelation in my life. I settled whatever problems some people might have had with me. Whether or not they really did have problems with me, I didn't really care. All I wanted to do was be rid of the complications and get on with my life that had already been crushed enough by then.

As far as I'm concerned, my dear friends, I've done MY part. I've dealt with my end of the bargain. Have you done the same? Or do you just have too much pride and self-righteousness clouding your minds in judgment? I've already said, "I forgive you. I hope you can forgive me'. Some have pretentiously accepted. Some have blatantly denied me redemption. If you really are my friend, you'd rejoice in my turning over a new leaf. Who do you think you are? God the Almighty? Oh I know what you're gonna say, "No. I would never be like you and say such a blasphemous thing such as that". Let me re-educate you, you ignorant prick. God the Almighty isn't gonna offer you even the luxury of redemption for being the self-righteous worm that you are.

Much audacity you have to come and tell me not to be a stranger. All of you. You do whatever the hell you want and it's ok. So I take my leave to heal and I'm a stranger? What the hell are you then?

With regards to you, Mr. Flaky, I have had no problems with you. Why are you apologizing to me only under the influence of alcohol? Are you feeling guilty? Are you wetting your pajamas? I have nothing to do with the rubbish you hear at school. Why are you getting affected if you in fact are not a culprit then? You say, "I value our friendship much more than any of it. I love you as my friend". Please read above. Your name is Mr. Flaky.

And YOU. My dearly beloved you. Nobody knows you better than I do. Nobody knows me better than you do. At least I think you do. After all that, you choose to listen to an idiot that you can't even stand enough to work with. And in your defense, you poison the minds of others. How insecure are you? If you have some kind of a problem with me, then why don't you just come up to me and say it? Why do you hide under the protection of the minds that you have poisoned? Do you think I'm some kind of a dumb ass? Oh please, give me a break. None of you could ever match up to my intelligence.

I feel sorry for you. How many times do I have to tell you what's good for you? You never listen. You never WANT to. What goes on in your head? Sometimes I don't know because you can't even express yourself. Who are you trying to delude besides yourself? You've already admitted to me that you were in denial all this while. It's time you admitted it to YOURSELF. Oh sorry, I forgot you're too busy sipping on the high-life and sucking face with Mr. Hamburger Head. You've lost it so much that a non-musician knows more than you about Miles Davis and John Coltrane. You have got to be kidding me. What a confirmation of all the bullshit you've been throwing at me. I'm through. Put the pieces together. Maybe you'd find some enlightenment.

*This entry is dedicated to the bestest best friends ever. Some of whom may not have been mentioned here, but they deserve credit all the same. Please feel free to leave your comments here because it'll be interesting.

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

Walk Away

2006-09-29T09:35:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

Oh no, here comes that sun again.
And that means another day without you my friend.
And it hurts me to look into the mirror at myself.
And it hurts even more to have to be with somebody else.

And it's so hard to do and so easy to say.
But sometimes - sometimes,
you just have to walk away - walk away.

With so many people to love in my life, why do I worry about one?
But you put the happy in my ness, you put the good times into my fun.

And it's so hard to do and so easy to say.
But sometimes - sometimes,
you just have to walk away - walk away and head for the door.

We've tried the goodbye so many days.
We walk in the same direction so that we could never stray.
They say if you love somebody than you have got to set them free,
but I would rather be locked to you than live in this pain and misery.
They say time will make all this go away,
but it's time that has taken my tomorrows and turned them into yesterdays.
And once again that rising sun is droppin' on down
And once again, you my friend, are nowhere to be found.

And it's so hard to do and so easy to say.
But sometimes, sometimes you just have to walk away, walk away and head for the door.
You just walk away - walk away - walk away.
You just walk away, walk on, turn and head for the door.

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

Only Happy In The Sun

2006-09-28T11:35:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

I know you may not want to see me
On your way down from the clouds
Would you hear me if I told you
That my heart is with you now

She's only happy in the sun
She's only happy in the sun

Did you find what you were after?
The pain and the laughter brought you to your knees
But if the sun sets you free, sets you free
You'll be free indeed, Indeed

She's only happy in the sun
She's only happy in the sun

Every time I hear you laughing, I hear you laughing
It makes me cry
Like the story of life, of your life
Is hello, goodbye

She's only happy in the sun
She's only happy in the sun

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

Another Lonely Day

2006-09-27T10:11:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

Yes indeed, I'm alone again.
And here comes emptiness crashing in.
It's either love or hate,
I can't find in between,
'cause I've been with witches and I've been with a queen.

It wouldn't have worked out anyway.
So now it's just another lonely day.
Further along we just may.
But for now it's just another lonely day.

Wish there was something now I could say or do.
I can resist anything but the temptation from you.
But I'd rather walk alone than chase you around.
I'd rather fall myself than let you drag me on down.

It wouldn't have worked out anyway.
And now it's just another lonely day.
Further along we just may.
But for now, it's just another lonely day.

Yesterday seems like a life ago,
'cause the one I love today, I hardly know,
You I held so close in my heart, Oh dear,
Grow further from me with every fallen tear.

It wouldn't have worked out anyway.
So now it's just another lonely day.
Further along we just may.
But for now it's just another lonely day.
For now it's just another lonely day.
For now it's just another lonely day.

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

Yeah, Whatever..

2006-09-12T17:43:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

And you're primitive...
And you're cynical to me
And I chewed down on the bit
And almost swallowed it

You sit all alone with your color TV
Your hair starts to glisten
In spite of the fleas
We don't have to stay friends
Let's pretend to be enemies

Yeah, whatever makes you happy
Yeah, whatever makes it beautiful
Yeah, whatever leaves you satisfied
'Cuz I'm out of time
For now

And you're paranoid
As you look me up and down
And I'm soaked in gasoline
Mud and ice cream

You sit by the phone
With your tongue hanging out
You cradle the flies in the back of your mouth
We don't have to stay friends
Let's pretend to be enemies

Damned if you do
Fucked if you don't
Damned if you do
What if you won't

You must be aware what you're
Doing to me
We sunk like a stone on a rock
In the sea

We don't have to stay friends
(Not for very long)
We don't have to stay friends
(Just because you're gone)

You get what you want 'cuz you won't let it die

Yeah, whatever makes you happy
Yeah, whatever leaves you insecure
Yeah, whatever seems to break you down

'Cuz I'm out of time
But I'm feeling fine

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

I'll Do Anything I Want To

2006-08-29T18:09:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

There are people that will investigate you
They'll insinuate, intimidate and complicate you
Don't ever wait or hesitate to state the fate that awaits those who
Try to shake or take you
Don't let them break you
You can do anything you want to do
It's not wrong what I sing it's true
You can do anything you want to do
Do what you want to
People that despise you will analyse then criticise you
They'll scandalise and tell lies until they realize
You are someone they should have apologised to
Don't let these people compromise you
Be wise too
You can do anything you want to do
It's not wrong what I sing it's true
You can do anything you want to do
Do what you want to
Hey you you're not their puppet on a string
You can do everything
It's true if you really want to
You can do anything you want
Just like I do
You can do anything you want to do
It's not wrong when I sing it's true
You can do anything you want to do
Do what you want

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

I've Been Had!

2006-08-08T17:00:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

We had a blast on Thursday at the chalet. It was intimate. Just the few of us. No hassle. A lot of fun. Amanda taught us to play this new card game called Citadel. I was poking fun at it initially but after we started to get the hang of it, we were very addicted.

I had dinner with Darren, Godma and Mama at the Cha Cha Cha, a second-rate Mexican food restaurant after Margarita's, the next day. We were just in time to go watch Keith perform with his Montfort Chorale at CHIJMES. It was pretty alright. Dropped by Jasmine's work-place after that, but she wasn't working that day. We had coffee. We adjourned back to Godma's to chill and watch a movie. Glory Day is a good movie to catch. My brothers went home after, while I headed back to the chalet from the night before. I had my fun again only until I found out some displeasing news from a good friend, Mitch. He felt that I was being kept in the dark about certain things and he told me all about it through the morning. I felt sadness, anger and a sense of enlightenment. The answers to my questions were more or less given to me that night.

The next day, Saturday, My family celebrated my birthday in advance at dinner. We ate at the Sumo House at Bedok Central. Decent Japanese food at very affordable prices. I couldn't really enjoy myself because of what I found out the night before but I tried as much as I could to. Back at my Godma's place, I proceeded to tell her about what I found out. Auntie Regina voiced there and then that she had seen it coming from the beginning. I don't know how I'd never seen it coming, my way at least. Stayed at Godma's with Darren till 6am and then took a cab home.

After dinner on Sunday, I went out to meet Mark and Brad. We chilled around Hougang till about 4am. We were just talking and I was filling them in on stuff. I'm glad I met them.

Monday came and went. My 22nd Birthday. For the first time in my life, I felt like shit on my birthday. My mom made me breakfast. She could tell I wasn't feeling happy. She asked me why. I couldn't hide it so I told her what had happened. She listened and advised me. After that, I went to get ready for school. While I was about to brush my teeth, I started crying. My face was numbing up and I couldn't stop myself. I got to school and everyone was wishing me warmly. Well, almost everyone. I had lunch with Marcus, Jeremy, Guoliang, Huimin and Huiying. I was doing alright. I had my laughs with Marcus and Jeremy. Later on, Marcus, Sara and I headed to go meet Mark, Brad, Aloy and Sufyan for dinner to celebrate my birthday. A shame Mitch couldn't join us for dinner. On the way there, I was thinking about the bad things that made me upset and it was unbearable. I tried to hide it but I couldn't. As a result of that, some complained that I was being grumpy as usual. That's fine. By the time we sat down for dinner, I can say that I was pretty much alright. Sara and Sufyan left after dinner and the rest of us headed to Jean's place for drinks. Mitch was there and We all found out more about what's been happening in the shadows. Other than that, I had my fun and I was glad I had my family there with me.

Thank You, Saleeloo, for planning the dinner. It meant a lot =)

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

We Don't Know What We're Here For

2006-08-03T03:56:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
'Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

Don't Worry. Be Happy.

2006-08-02T05:17:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

Today, I met Sha'ari and Kokliang opposite school. Kokliang left halfway. Sha'ari and I had some good catching up done. We laughed and talked about funny things. Nobody cracks me up like Sha'ari does, apart from myself. After he got on the bus home, I walked over to school to meet the rest of my school mates. I jammed with them for a little bit. I watched them practice for a little bit. I sat outside for a little bit listening along with Letitia and Josiah to Audrey rant about complications. I said hello to Tim and said goodbye to Lindsay. I saw some people in school that I haven't seen in some time due to the long school break. I sat with Norman for a little bit. I tried to make him feel better. I told him to take care. I said goodbye to everyone else.

I met Justin and Ivan for dinner at Parkway Parade. It's been a long time. It couldn't have been better. The same with Sha'ari, we had some good catching up done and laughed and talked about funny things. I worked my stomach muscles today. After dinner, we played pool. I kept winning only because they haven't played in a long time and I've been practicing for the past two years. Haha. I love those guys. They're my placebo. After pool, we headed down to the original Athirah's Prata Place to have traditional teh-peng and mediocre prata. When it had gotten late, we decided to head home for the night. Ivan walked home and so did Justin and I. Yes, that's right. We walked all the way home. We talked about Catholicism. The walk did me a lot of good.

Recently, I've gone all out to set things straight with people around me that I care about. Very often, I come across as someone who is insensitive to others' feelings. In the way that I behave and speak in front of others, especially those whom I care more for than mere acquaintances. I have my pride and many a time, I don't realize this. It hurts when the people I care about tell me that I'm nothing but a grouch; that I show ingratitude and I'm plain selfish. I don't blame them and I've decided to change that. When I embarked on this new mission to change, most people were receptive but taken by surprise. Some were not so receptive. Again, I don't blame. It's not easy to swallow. If I were to be presented with the same kind of scenario in the past, I'd probably be as non-receptive but we all make our mistakes. Whether they are big or small, we're still the same. I've made my mistakes. I wish to make it better. What's in the past is in the past. I cannot do away with the hurt. I can only look forward and ensure that I don't make the same mistakes. Some may say, "Only now, does he realize." I am no saint, nor do I expect people to understand fully. Whether I realize now or any other time, it doesn't really matter. What matters is that I'm aware. The sad truth is that most people aren't aware about a lot of things. I've always known that but the best part is that now I know that it starts with me.

"If you hate, then the only person you hurt is yourself. Most people don't know you hate; and those who do, don't care." - Medgar Evers

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

It Is Done

2006-07-29T03:10:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

School started this week... walked into school with my rows... highly anticipated... very well received... that's it. Skipped school for the next three days... felt heartache... returned on friday to settle administrative problems. Friday helped me learn lots of things... felt pretty good after... I dont have to take any class except main study this semester... enough credits to get me through... such a good boy. Said something to an acquaintance... resulted in a quarrel later that night... insults flung my way from left, right & center... It's ok. To my acquaintance... good luck to all that you do... sincerely... from the bottom of my heart.

I guess it wasn't meant to be peachy on friday. You'd think things couldn't get any worse. They get worse everytime. I'm sorry to all. Whoever you may be. I'm not being sarcastic. I'm so numb. I can't even cry. Well... maybe I can say one more thing. I don't stop loving. I may have my faults. I don't deny. I may complain. At the end of the day... I don't stop loving. I don't stop giving. Everyone was made different. I don't hate because of that. We all have our demons. So what right have you to judge? I guess the only thing I have a problem with is the fact that people persecute you for one fault while everyone is equally tainted with fault.

If you think that I don't think of others' feelings... then you're the one who doesn't because you're too ignorant to even know me well enough. I am not a bad person.

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

Inner Thoughts Of Frustration, Sadness & Fantasy

2006-06-29T17:44:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

Why do I put the world upon my shoulders when I have my own problems to worry about?
Why do I lose control so easily then? Aren't I supposed to be stronger than most because of this?
Why do I lose friends over what I hold dear? Why do people give up on me when I never gave up on them?
Why do I dedicate my life to understanding people when I'm not being understood in return?
Why are people so obsessed with the high-life? Why do they forsake me for it?
Why am I so out of it? Why can't anyone ever understand?
Am I destined for abandonment? What did I do to deserve it?
Sometimes I wish I could disperse into a million pieces just to deal with the pain,
and subsequently disappear from existence.
Slowly, my childhood dreams wither into oblivion as I grow up.
Slowly, I lose myself to dreams.
Slowly, my heart builds a fortress of stone.
Surely, I'll perish.
Swiftly, the thought of it comforts me.
I am the crying statue in the rain that nobody notices.
My soul is dormant.
I observe as the years pass me by.
I travel in time watching the people come and go.
I am forgotten.

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

Get A Life And Cling On To It!

2006-06-21T18:45:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

Never did I ever think that I'd meet a REAL psychopath face to face! This person has not a life and he/she builds his/her life around a certain someone as if that person were this person's source of perpetual nutrition! It's madness, I say! This person has gone to many lengths to keep that person for him/herself. Not only that! Now the psycho is beginning to look like this other certain someone. This other certain someone had best be careful and weary! You wouldn't want the friendship to end like that Jane Fonda movie where the psycho room-mate tries to KILL her! AH! Don't come running when that happens, yah!

Behold! The Warning hath been given! Take heed or there is NO turning back!

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

Ramblings

2006-06-20T16:17:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

Greetings, my good people of the Empire! I've decided to stop smoking and drinking for you, good people, and lead a healthy lifestyle. The first step to it would be doing away with late nights and re-introducing good nights of rest. I'm so deep in quick sand that I realize I need to turn myself over. I'm sick of sleeping in the mornings. So since I had to wake up early on Saturday to relieve Mark at the Melody Music School, I decided to forego hanging out the night before. It didn't really go as planned. I couldn't sleep the whole night mainly because I think too much and I just wasn't used to it. Nevertheless, I made sure I was at work by 930am. My work day would have lasted till 7pm but to my advantage I was able to finish by 530pm. I swear by lunch-time, I was close to knocking out. So I may not have given my best for the students who came in after lunch. For that, I apologize.

When I got home, I had my dinner and then I knocked out till the next morning. Just in time for church. T'was Lynnly Ann's Confirmation Mass. After mass, we had lunch and then everyone came over to my place to visit my mom and also to hang out. We all had fun talking about nonsense. By night, everyone left but Brad stayed over. We watched the Lord of the Rings (the Return of the King - extended & uncensored version). By the time it was done, Darren hit the sack but Brad and I were hungry so we went downstairs to get food. We stayed up till the morning and then Brad left for home. I went straight to bed at 7am. I thought my plans would ruin.

The Next day, I awoke at 4pm (I think). Had breakfast/lunch/dinner at 5pm. Left the house at 7pm to go over to Brad's place where he and Chris were waiting. Chris is a fitness-trainer now so he's training Brad and I for free since we're family. We ran about 2km without stopping and then we did like squats, chin-ups, crunches, push-ups, jumps and etc. I swear by then I was close to concussion. I threw up the food I ate at breakfast/lunch/dinner. Yes, I know it's because I wasn't well prepared, but at least it's a start. After that, we walked back to Brad's place to hydrate and then do weight-lifting exercises. Those weren't too bad since I had some time to breathe while walking back and also a chance to hydrate. So that is our routine for working out, although Chris says that today was knocked down to a minimum because it was my first time. We'll be back on the track come Wednesday as well as Friday too. It's gonna be like that till school starts for me again. Chris is preparing me for the army. I don't wanna die when it comes.

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

The Next Chapter

2006-05-27T17:55:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

From the eerie depths of foggy war, we emerge victorious... never again... will we stoop to their level! We have lost many of our able-bodied men to the likes of our arch-nemesis, Sir Sufus the Dufus and his side-kick... the Bar-servant Rawk! Our women and children cry for their beloved fathers and husbands. I cannot ease that pain. I, myself have lost all that's dear to my heart. We shall not let these set us back! We will rebuild this torn empire. Restore it to the brilliance it was once resting upon!

We drove our enemies away from here... all the way to the ends of the world and we threw them over the edge... where oblivion awaits! Never again will we be threatened by them... and... what? My people of the Empire... I bare grave news! My experts have just informed me that it has been recently discovered that the world is in fact ROUND! Our enemies were driven into a deep trench that they dug up to deceive us! How cunning! How smart! How sinister! They march for us as I speak to you! Hurry, Women and children! It is up to you to defend our beloved empire! No-one will rest till we are rid of those who oppose the Empire! I will be in my chambers...

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

The Time Hath Cometh!

2005-05-28T17:54:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

Greetings, my good people of the city. There have been disputes about whether or not to put an end to all this bickering and ranting between the Empire and its puny nemesis, the rebellion that lives outside the empire! Sir Sufus the Dufus hath allied himself with the notorious and crazy Bar-servant Rawk, a.k.a Treasonous Lips. They are assembling their rebellion outside the city walls as we speak! Now, there is no need for panic. The usual procedures would have to be carried out immediately. Your women and children will take refuge inside the stables, where there is enough supplies of hay to last them through the century. Every man, fit and abled, will report to the barracks as militia, immediately!

I say to you now, my good people! For years, you have warded off many invaders! No matter what, you have protected the Empire and the city's walls with your dear lives! In ancient times, you have done well! Let I, the Emperor, be proud of you all once more! Be brave and fearless! For now is the time when darkess falls! To fight for what is, and what should never be!

We march! Let them hear the cry of WAR!!!!

"We come from the land of the ice and snow! From the midnight sun where the hot springs blow! The hammer of the gods will drive our ships to new lands! To fight the horde, singing and crying! Valhalla! We are coming! How soft your fields so green, can whisper tales of gore, of how we calmed the tides of war! We are your overlords! On we sweep with threshing oar! Our only goal will be the western shore! So now you'd better stop and rebuild all your ruins! For peace and trust can win the day despite of all your losing!"

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

Infidels!!!

2005-05-16T18:04:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

For those who claimed that the Kingdom of Heaven movie sucks, you should all be beheaded! I watched it and absolutely loved it. It was damn enlightening for me to watch. My favourite character has got to be the King of Jerusalem. The way he spoke just blew me outta town.

I conclude that the Crusades were an elusive attempt to "re-conquer" the Holy Lands at Jerusalem. Ironically, the mass killing that inflicted war between the great religions were done in the name of God. Furthermore, both respecting religions worship and praise the same God. What a shame! The same things are still going on till today.

Watching it made me realise one thing. The more you defend your religion, the more you are trying to put another religion to shame. Why would you want to insult your fellow brother in that way? This goes for both sides, whom are guilty of it. One of the main reasons why people still fight religious wars, is that mankind constantly hungers for the power, wealth and the satisfaction of being right! If you're gonna blame anything on religion, then you're a fool. God didn't create religion. He created mankind who, in turn, created religion. Lastly, War has never been God's Will. It has always been the will of man. So bite your own tongues and love it! Everytime you call someone an infidel, you might as well say it to yourself.

Favourite Quote from the movie:
"God will understand. If He does not, then he is not God. In that case, we need not worry at all."

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

It's Gangsta Rap, ya'll.

2005-05-14T04:35:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

Don't nobody pass up on this one, ya'll. 'Cos this shit is HILARIOUS!

Titled - "Look At Me Now" (The names of these artists have been kept confidential by consent of the Emperor. Within this posting, they shall be known only as J & H.)

J: Yo, Han!
H: Wassup, J?
J: Are this people lookin' at me?
H: What... are they supposed to?
J: Hell! Yeah, they do! So you gonna bring it?
H: You gonna bring it?
J: Gonna start now
H: Yeah, here it comes!
J: Here it comes, Uh!

Chorus
J: Look at me now
H: Still standing stage strong
J: Look at me now
H: I'm gonna be here for long
J: Look at me now
H: Everybody look at me now
J: Gonna be a blast! You know who's the best! Now listen to our song!

Verse (J)
I start with a treble while you tremblin'! Perfect Dolby sound while your song is getting cancelling! Keep and love my rap transition. It's rockin' my main party! Know my audience. Know my players and prepare for my closing! Wot? I transpose my rap from a slow to allegro! We should do up my voice like I'm singing a "J Lo"! Accent on the G's. Rap from black to white. Be "Sisi" to my own voice. You're unknown to my delight! Wot?

-Chorus-

Verse (H)
Some people call me Han, but I'm known best for delusions, Illusions and all of mind tests. I'm a raging fire burning this whole town. Walk in my attire bringin' all your heads down! I'm nice like a mice when I feel like it. A spice to life, while yours feels like shit! I'm gonna end my song so bring the chorus now. 'Cos when I bust my flow, You'll be looking at me now!

-Chorus-

Verse (J & H)
J: Straight out from the babe pool
H: You'll be hearing the sound...
J: to the noise of the is there!
H: Rhymes so, so profound! Till the day we're found...
J: We'll Keep the game tight!
J & H: Bustin' on the normal. We'll be doing 2 dice, Uh! It's J & Han! You know this song is so undone
J: 'Cos when we're done, we'll lead the contingent in the front!
H: The Commander of the war...
J: The people we meet...
H: You'll be fighting...
J: You'll be shooting...
J & H: while you be lookin' at me, Wot!

-Chorus- (x2)

J: Look at me now (x3) Gonna be a blast! You know who's the best! Now listen to our song!
H: Look at me now.... nananana.... (x2)
J: Han! Han! Han! Shut up now. Han!
H: What?J: It's over. The song's over. Shut up.. cos yeah, I think you should go now... (fades)

-End-

P.S. The bad english is meant to be. Go figure this one out, my good people!

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

A New Day

2005-05-12T15:51:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

Hello, my good people! I'm sure you all know about the christian evangelists that we agreed to put up with in our land before. Years have gone by and times have changed for the better. The christian evangelists have mingled with our kind and now they dwell with us as one. The evangelists have since been inter-marrying themselves with the people of this city. Hence, you have all been converted to the ways of the Christ.

As you all may know... I, myself, have just experienced the act of baptism by water. I am fully content with my new beliefs in God and His Son, Jesus Christ. May His light shine upon my reign here as Emperor! And now, I shall lead you all in the special event of Gospel Hymn Singing - courtesy of Sir Kurdt Cobain.

-They Hung Him On A Cross-

They hung him on a cross
They hung him on a cross
They hung him on a cross for me!

One day when I lost
They hung him on a cross
They hung him on a cross for me!

They whooped him up the hill
They whooped him up the hill
They whooped him up the hill for me!

One day when I lost
They hung him on a cross
They whooped him up the hill for me!

They never said among them would
They never said among them would
They never said among them would for me!

One day when I was lost
They hung him on a cross
They hung him on a cross for me!

They bit him in the side
They bit him in the side
They bit him in the side for me!

One day when I lost
They hung him on a cross
They hung him on a cross for me!

They hung his head and died
They hung his head and died
We hung his head and he died for me!

One day when I was lost
They hung him on a cross
They hung him on a cross for me!

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

Blandest

2005-05-10T00:38:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

Movies to catch up with:
Sahara
Guess Who
Mr & Mrs Something
Kingdom of Heaven
War of the Worlds
the Hitch-hiker's Guide to the Galaxy
Madagascar
Star Wars: Episode III

Good movies that you might have missed,
that you shouldn't miss for a second time:
A Beautiful Mind
American Beauty
Chocolate
Sleepers
K-pax
Starship Troopers
Christmas Vacation
Deep Impact
Ocean's Eleven
25th Hour
Fight Club
American History X
Greedy
the Count of Monte Cristo!!!
(more to come, next posting)

If ever, you're selling red roses at your church or in town for Mother's Day, don't be a fool and insist that the passers-by purchase your merchandise. If he or she says "No", then so be it. Just think about it. For the love of ME, he or she may not have a mother to give your stinkin' roses to!!!

Let my wisdom inspire you, my good people!

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

Lost In Siglap

2005-05-04T23:33:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

Today, Lady Sara and I had dinner with the director and leading cast of "Lost In Transit", an up-and-coming new amateur musical about a girl who dreams of becoming a star in the big city. Sara plays Mia, the lead role. On the side, Sara and I have been given the task of arranging and instrumenting the 40 min show.

We dined at "Chat Masala", which is owned by Sundram Moorthi of the Singapore Lions. Great Indian food for the high rollers, and a bit expensive too. I gather it's a popular place with the celebrities. I saw the whole Richmond gang along with Beatrice Chia's folks, and an anonymous talent who normally plays the gangster/bad guy on channel 5. I also met up with an old acquaintance by the name of Candice d'Rozario who happens to be one of the leading cast as well.

So after dinner and discussions, we head on down to Siglap South CC to rehearse and go through the songs, which were originally written by Desmond Moey and Stella Kon. Based on what they'd handed us so far, it looked like we have a lot of re-vamping to do. All in all, the rehearsal was pretty productive and i think we're finally moving on from here. The musical showcases on 26th of June @ the Arts House. Further details will be issued soon, I guess.

Now I have to go and wash the dishes for Lady Sara and then put Mark's composition into Sibelius for him.

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

Monday & Tuesday

2005-05-04T02:30:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

Wow. I really need to catch up with the time. I didn't speak about monday because I was so tired by the time I got back.
Monday starts off with waffles and lots of water. I had to hydrate and carb up for the early morning jog that Sara planned for us. We jogged once around the condominiums at ave 9 and that was it for us. Sara and I had not exercised like that in about one and a half year. Also because I had only 3 hours sleep, the fact that I've been smoking for a few years, waffles and a whole lot of water, I threw up the waffles and water after the run =p Don't worry! I felt better after that =) haha. Then we hit the pool to cool off.

We were invited to Jeanna's condo for barbequed lunch and a pool party. Everyone was there. Izan, Rebecca, Morgane, Jeanna, Daniel, Karol, Li Feng, Mark... and oh yeah! Suf. We didn't get the fire going very well till Daniel and Karol came because Suf was being insistant on how we should have gone about it (No offence man). Anyway Daniel came and set things straight. We ate. We sat. We talked and then we hit the pool. Sara and I didn't plan on swimming at 1st, but Jeanna made us =) Mark didn't because he came later. So we had our fun but by the time it got dark we were starting to get tired, and we packed up to go back up to Jeanna's place. We watched a bit of TV then everyone started to leave for home since we were all pretty damn tired.

I woke up from bed on tuesday thinking it'd be a quiet and lazy day. Sara had gone early for her piano lessons just around the corner and left me to sleep in. Her mom had left me a tub of Tau Huey before she left for work so my day looked to be going as planned. Sara gets back from piano lessons and begs me to go swim with her again. I didn't want to at 1st, but then I gave in since I love her so much =) heh heh.

After the swim, we decided to go out for lunch and then a movie. "Sahara", it seemed, was the choice movie to catch at that time of day. We headed down to Jubilee to purchase the tickets, then we had our late lunch at "Ramen Place" or something like that. T'was good. Sara had Chawan Mushi, Beef, Miso soup and Rice. I had Unagi(Eel), Miso soup, Rice and Deep-fried Oysters. We watched the movie afterwards. It was a great show. Steve Zahn is hilarious, in my opinion. Guess what? Sara loved it too =) How's that for a wonderful day spent without casualties?

We hailed a bus and headed down to the Esso Tigermart just around the corner from Sara's place. We bought snacks and cigarettes. Sara didn't let me get a lot of things because she's forcing me on a strict diet. Oh well. We walked back home from there. We watched TV from 8 to about midnight. "Ripley's Believe It or Not" to "CSI:New York" to "CSI:Las Vegas" to "Friends" to "Lion King 2: Simba's Pride".

After that, we took a shower and had a smoke before bedtime. Sara's already asleep, but here I am with you, good people =) Here I am to say that I haven't had a lot of time to think about matters of life. Oh life! You superficial, selfish, insensitive, cunning, conniving BITCH!!! I shall call you Edna!!! All you good people! Stay clear... the wrath of Edna!

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

May Day!!!

2005-05-02T03:22:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

Hello my good people. So i spent my sunday sleeping in. I woke up late, watched a lotta TV and had lunch late. Hmmm~ Subway =) Lady Sara decided to shape my eyebrows and then hers too. I was shocked at the end to find out she shaved a bit too much off my left brow, so now it looks weird. Just a little. We washed up and left the house for Cousin Ally's birthday party. Actually, we met up with Sha'ari halfway so he could pass Sa some stuff that he'd borrowed before. That wasn't very eventful. He came and left in a dash. The She-devil was probably waiting around somewhere. We wouldn't want to leave her stranded for too long now, wouldn't we? Adrian might be lurking around somewhere, waiting for the right opportunity to come out and give her a tight slap on her face!
Anyway, we finally got to the party and we had our fill of a locally catered dinner. Indulged in some chit-chat, some bad wine and somemore TV. We watched "Ice Age" and had a laugh. Proceeded to Ally's room where we started our usual rounds of "Shit Head", a card game that involves sabotage and doesn't really make a lot of sense. We love it still. The losers end up getting labelled shit heads. It's fun when you distort the titles of each round into nonsensical ones like "Bukake Slave of the Tutu Gang" or "Marcus' brown stain". It's all in good fun =)
Cousin Mel had to leave so we walked her to the MRT station. Well actually, just Colin, Mark and Gabriel. Brad, Chris, Sa and I stayed behind for a smoke. Then we got a call from Uncle Francis. He wanted a pack of menthol lights, so we went and got them for him.

On the way, we found out that Brad was kinda progressing with his new love interest and Chris fell out with his previous one. We Olsens are all cassanovas in one way or another. Brad was complaining to me that Jennifer, the ah lian, plays him hot and cold. He just can't tell if she wants him or not. Once after he accompanied her back to her place for the night, he felt like it was a good time to lean over and kiss her. They were standing awfully close to each other and he was about to do the deed, when all of a sudden she pulled a fag and lit it. He was disappointed, but i told him to simply go for it the next time he got the chance. Even if it turned out bad, he'd still be able to say he kissed the hottie from school! He was content with that. Chris expressed that he was utterly disgusted with the fact his ex doesn't shave her pitts! She invited him over to her house one day, for the purpose of studying together. He wasn't in a good mood and didn't really wanna go, but he went anyway. As soon as he got there, she turned on him like an animal in heat. She pressed her body against him and raised her arms to reveal her hairy pitts from hell! He said it was so bad that the hairs clumped together with her sweat! EEEEK! All I could say was, "Hey, that looks like a job for Mark!" Yeah, we had our laughs.

So we got back to the party. We played somemore "Shit Head". We chatted somemore then it was time to go. It's always good to hang out with family. Then here I am, taking this entry down into the world of cyber journals. It all still feels so surreal. Now I bid farewell to you, my good people, for today brings many more an adventure. Later on this morning, we Exercise!

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

2005-04-30T17:37:00.000+08:00

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

OK. Hello my good people. So the examinations are through and I still feel that slight anxiety in my stomache, as if this is no time to rest easy. Still, I rest easy. Gosh, it's hot and humid around here. On top of that, it's same old same old; boring as hell! I guess the only interesting thing that has happened so far today is Clemmie claims my good friend, Sufyan, had a crush on her back at Chatsworth. Yeah. Nothing really happens around here. TV is entertaining enough, though.

So if you're wondering, "How in hell did Nick Olsen pluck the courage to start up a blog?"
This is how...

I never was into Blogging or keeping up with live journals. A bunch of friends got hooked on it and i was left hanging on the dark side of no blog land. DUN DUN DUN DUN!!! I would read the entries when I got bored and when nobody's looking. I guess if you hang out with the right kinda people, blogs aint that bad =) Sometimes entries can get really entertaining to read as long as they're not full of Brooding, Mood changing, ecstatic the next time round, Mambo Jambo Loser, Poser, SHITS. Heh Heh. I used to terrorise such people =) Anyway, it's been an uneventful year and maybe it's time for a change. Who knows? Maybe I'll learn how to express myself better? WAHAHAHA! Here's to a fresh new start. Something more exciting for the good people to enjoy.

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*