Inner Thoughts Of Frustration, Sadness & Fantasy

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

Why do I put the world upon my shoulders when I have my own problems to worry about?
Why do I lose control so easily then? Aren't I supposed to be stronger than most because of this?
Why do I lose friends over what I hold dear? Why do people give up on me when I never gave up on them?
Why do I dedicate my life to understanding people when I'm not being understood in return?
Why are people so obsessed with the high-life? Why do they forsake me for it?
Why am I so out of it? Why can't anyone ever understand?
Am I destined for abandonment? What did I do to deserve it?
Sometimes I wish I could disperse into a million pieces just to deal with the pain,
and subsequently disappear from existence.
Slowly, my childhood dreams wither into oblivion as I grow up.
Slowly, I lose myself to dreams.
Slowly, my heart builds a fortress of stone.
Surely, I'll perish.
Swiftly, the thought of it comforts me.
I am the crying statue in the rain that nobody notices.
My soul is dormant.
I observe as the years pass me by.
I travel in time watching the people come and go.
I am forgotten.

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

Get A Life And Cling On To It!

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

Never did I ever think that I'd meet a REAL psychopath face to face! This person has not a life and he/she builds his/her life around a certain someone as if that person were this person's source of perpetual nutrition! It's madness, I say! This person has gone to many lengths to keep that person for him/herself. Not only that! Now the psycho is beginning to look like this other certain someone. This other certain someone had best be careful and weary! You wouldn't want the friendship to end like that Jane Fonda movie where the psycho room-mate tries to KILL her! AH! Don't come running when that happens, yah!

Behold! The Warning hath been given! Take heed or there is NO turning back!

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*

Ramblings

*Gong* All Ye Hail Emperor Superstar! The Emperor Thpeaketh!

Greetings, my good people of the Empire! I've decided to stop smoking and drinking for you, good people, and lead a healthy lifestyle. The first step to it would be doing away with late nights and re-introducing good nights of rest. I'm so deep in quick sand that I realize I need to turn myself over. I'm sick of sleeping in the mornings. So since I had to wake up early on Saturday to relieve Mark at the Melody Music School, I decided to forego hanging out the night before. It didn't really go as planned. I couldn't sleep the whole night mainly because I think too much and I just wasn't used to it. Nevertheless, I made sure I was at work by 930am. My work day would have lasted till 7pm but to my advantage I was able to finish by 530pm. I swear by lunch-time, I was close to knocking out. So I may not have given my best for the students who came in after lunch. For that, I apologize.

When I got home, I had my dinner and then I knocked out till the next morning. Just in time for church. T'was Lynnly Ann's Confirmation Mass. After mass, we had lunch and then everyone came over to my place to visit my mom and also to hang out. We all had fun talking about nonsense. By night, everyone left but Brad stayed over. We watched the Lord of the Rings (the Return of the King - extended & uncensored version). By the time it was done, Darren hit the sack but Brad and I were hungry so we went downstairs to get food. We stayed up till the morning and then Brad left for home. I went straight to bed at 7am. I thought my plans would ruin.

The Next day, I awoke at 4pm (I think). Had breakfast/lunch/dinner at 5pm. Left the house at 7pm to go over to Brad's place where he and Chris were waiting. Chris is a fitness-trainer now so he's training Brad and I for free since we're family. We ran about 2km without stopping and then we did like squats, chin-ups, crunches, push-ups, jumps and etc. I swear by then I was close to concussion. I threw up the food I ate at breakfast/lunch/dinner. Yes, I know it's because I wasn't well prepared, but at least it's a start. After that, we walked back to Brad's place to hydrate and then do weight-lifting exercises. Those weren't too bad since I had some time to breathe while walking back and also a chance to hydrate. So that is our routine for working out, although Chris says that today was knocked down to a minimum because it was my first time. We'll be back on the track come Wednesday as well as Friday too. It's gonna be like that till school starts for me again. Chris is preparing me for the army. I don't wanna die when it comes.

The Emperor Hath Thpoken! *Gong*